nicholas :
safe in the light that surrounds me
free of the fear and the pain
my subconscious mind
starts spinning through time
to rejoign the past once again

nothing seems real
i'm starting to feel
lost in the haze of a dream

and as i draw near
the scene becomes clear
like watching my life on a screen

hello victoria so glad to see you
my friend.
				

[instrumental]
				

nicholas :
subconscious strange sensation
unconscious relaxation
what a pleasant nightmare
and i can't wait to get there again

every time i close my eyes
there's another vivid surprise
another whole life waiting
chapters unfinished, fading

closer now- slowly coming into view
i've arrived- blinding sunshine beaming through

there's a house i'm drawn to
familiar settings nothing new
there's a pathway leading there
with a haunting chill in the air

there's a room at the top of the stairs
every i'm drawn up there
there's a girl in the mirror
her face is getting clearer
young child won't you tell me why i'm here ?

in her eyes- i sense a story never told
behind the disguise- there's something tearing
at her soul

victoria :
tonight i've been searching for it
a feeling that's deep inside me
tonight i've been searching for
the one that nobody knows
trying to break free

i just can't help myself
i'm feeling like i'm going out of my head
tears my heart into two
i'm not the one the sleeper thought he knew

nicholas :
back on my feet again
eyes open to the real world
metropolis surrounds me
the mirror's shattered the girl

why is this other life
haunting me every day
i'd break through to the other side
if i'd find the way

something's awfully familiar
the feeling's so hard to shake
could i have lived in that other world
it's a link that i'm destined to make

i'm still searching but i don't know what for
the missing key to unlock my mind's door

today i am searching for it
a feeling that won't go away
today i am searching for
the one that i only know
trying to break free

i just can't help myself
i'm feeling like i'm going out of my head
tears my heart into two
i'm not the one i thought i always knew

i just can't help myself
i'm feeling like i'm going out of my head
uncanny, strange deja-vu
but i don't mind- i hope to find the truth
				

nicholas :
all your eyes have ever seen
all you've ever heard
is etched upon my memory
is spoken through my words

all that i take with me
is all you've left behind
we're sharing one eternity
living in two minds
linked by an endless thread
impossible to break
				

nicholas :
alone at night
i feel so strange
i need to find
all the answers to my dreams

when i sleep at night
i hear the cries
what does this mean ?

i shut the door and traceled to another home
i met an older man, he seemed to be alone
i felt that i could trust him
he talked to me that night ;


lad did you know a girl was murdered here ?
this fatal tragedy was talked about for years

victoria's gone forever
only memories remains
she passed away
she was so young

without love
without truth
there can be no turning back

without faith
without hope
there can be no peace of mind

as the night went on
i started to find my way
i learned about a tragedy
a mystery still today

i tried to get more answers
but he said, you're on your own
the he turned away and left me
as i stand there all alone
he said, you'll know the truth
as your future days unfold

without love
without truth
there can be no turning back

without faith
without hope
there can be no peace of mind
				

headline : murder, young girl killed
desperate shooting at echoe's hill
dreadful ending, killer died
evidently suicide


a witness heard a horrifying sound
he ran to find a woman dead and
lying on the ground

standing by her was a man
nervous, shaking, gun in hand
witness says he tried to help
but he'd turned the weapon on himself

his body fell across that poor young girl
after shooting out in vain
the witness ran to call for assistance
a sad close to a broken love affair

our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are

our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are

she wanted love forever
but he had another plan
he fell into an evil way
she had to let him down
she said, i can't love a wayward man

she may have found a reason to forgive
if he had only tried to change
was their fatal meeting prearranged ?

had a violent struggle taken place ?
there was every sign that lead here
witness found a switchblade on the ground
was the victim unaware ?
they continued to investigate
they found a note in the killer's pocket
it could have been a suivide letter
maybe he had lost her love

i feel there's only one thing left to do
i'd sooner take my life away
than live with losing you

our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are

our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are

all that we learn this time
is carried beyond this life

all that we learn this time
is carried beyond this life
				

[instrumental]
				

nicholas :
she never really had a chance
on that fateful moonlit night
sacrificed without a fight
a victim of her circumstance

now that i've become aware
and i've exposed this tragedy
a sadness grows inside of me
it all seems so unfair

i'm learning all about my life
by looking through her eyes

just beyond the churchyard gates
where the grass is overgrown
i saw the writing on her stone
i felt like i would suffocate

in loving memory of our child
so innocent, eyes open wide
i flet so empty as i cried
like part of me had died

i'm learning all about my life
by looking through her eyes

and as her image
wandered through my head
i wept just like a baby
as i lay awake in bed

and i know what it's like
to lose someone you love
and this felt just the same

she wasn't given any choice
desperation stole her voice
i've been given so much more in life
i've got a son, i've got a wife

i had to suffer one last time
to grieve for her and say goodbye
relive the anguish of my part
to find out who i was at last

the door has opened wide
i'm turning with the tide
looking through her eyes
				

the sleeper :
shine- lake of fire
lines takes me higher
my mind drips desire
confined and overtide

living this charade
is getting me nowhere
i can't shake this charade
the city's cold blood calls me home ...
home ... it's what i long for
back home ... where i belong

the city- it calls to me
decadent scenes from my memory
sorrow- eternity
my demons are coming to drown me

help- i'm falling, i'm crawling
i can't keep away from its clutch
can't have it this habit
it's calling me back to my home

the miracle :
i remember the first time she came to me
poured her soul out all night and cry ...

i remember i was told there's a new love that's born
for each one that has died ...

i never thought that i
could carry on with this lie
but i can't resist myself
no matter how hard i try

living their other life
is getting there nowhere
i'll make her my wife
her sweet temptation calls me home ...
home ... it's what i long for
my home ... where she belongs

her ecstasy- means so much to me
even deceiving my own blood
victoria watches and thoughtfully smiles
she's taking me to my home

help- he's my brother, but i love her
i can't keep away from her touch
deception, dishonor
it's calling me back to my home

nicholas :
her story- it holds the key
unlocking dreams from my memory
solving this mystery
is everything that is a part of me

help- regression, obsession
i can't keep away from its clutch
leave nodoubt, to find out
it's calling me back to my home
				

[instrumental]
				

nicholas :
it doesn't make any sense
this tragic ending
in spite of the evidence
there's something still missing

heard some of the rumors told
a taste of one's wealth
did victoria wound his soul ?
did she bid him farewell

victoria :
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
until we fade away
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
we slowy fade away


nicholas :
here i am inside his home
it holds the many clues
to my suspicions
and as i'm standing here right now
i'm finally shown what i always known

coincidence i can't believe
as my childhood dreams slowly come true

are these her memories
awakened through my eyes
this house has brought back to life

an open door
i walk on through
into his bedroom

feeling has cold as outside
the walls disapear
to some woman who's screaming
a man pleads forgiveness
his words i cannot hear
				

nicholas :
where did we come from ?
why are we here ?
where do we go when we die ?
what lies beyond
and what lay before ?
is anything certain in life ?

they say, life's too short
the here and the now
and you're only given one shot
but could there be more,
have i lived before,
or could this be all that we've got ?

if i die tomorrow
i'd be allright
because i believe
that after we're gone
the spirit carries on

i used to be frightened of dying
i used to think death was an end
but that was before
i'm not scarred anymore
i know that my soul will transcend

i may never find all the answers
i may never understand why
i may never prove
what i know to be true
but i know that i still have to try

if i die tomorrow
i'd be allright
because i believe
that after we're gone
the spirit carries on

victoria :
move on, be brave
don't weep at my grave
because i am no longer here
but please never let
your memory of me disappear


nicholas :
safe in the light that's surrounds me
free of the fear and the pain
my questioning mind
has helped me to find
the meaning in my life again
victoria's real
i finaly feel
at peace with the girl in my dreams
and now that i'm here
it's perfectly clear
i found out what all this means

if i die tomorrow
i'd be allright
because i believe
that after we're gone
the spirit carries on
				

the miracle : 
friday evening
the blood still on my hands
to think that we would leave me now
for that un greatful man

solesurvivor
no witness to the crime
i must act fast to cover up
i think that there's still time

he'd seem hopeless and lost with this note
they'll buy into the words that i wrote

this feeling inside me
finally found my love, i've finally broke free
no longer torn in two
i'd take my own life before losing you

victoria :
feeling good this friday afternoon
i ran into julian
said we'd get together soon

he always had my heart
he needs to know
i'll break free of the miracle
it's time for him to go

this feeling inside me
finally found my love, i've finally broke free
no longer torn in two
he'd kill his brother if he only knew

their love renewed
they'd rendezvous
in a pathway out of view
they thought no one knew
then came a shot out of the night


the sleeper :
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
until we fade away
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
we fade away

as their bodies lies still
and the ending draws near
spirits rise through the air
all their fear disappear, it all becomes clear
a blinding light comes into view
an old soul exchanged for a new
a familar voice comes shining through ...


nicholas :
this feeling inside me
finally found my life, i'm finally free
no longer torn in two
i learned about my life by living through you

this feeling inside me
finally found my life, i'm finally free
no longer torn in two
living my own life by learning from you

we'll meet again my friend someday soon ...
				

the smile of dawn
arrived early may
she carried a gift from her home
the night shed a tear
to tell her of fear
and of sorrow and pain
she'll never outgrow

death is the first dance, eternal

there's no more freedom
the both of you will be confined to this mind

i was told there's a miracle for each day that i try
i was told there's a new love that' born for each one that has died
i was told there'd be no one to call on when i feel alone and afraid
i was told if you dream of the next world
you'll find yourself swimming in a lake of fire

as a child, i thought i could live without pain withpout sorrow
as a man i've found it's all caught up with me
i'm asleep yet i'm so afraid

somewhere like a scene of a memory
there's a picture worth a thousand words
eluding stares from faces before me
it hides away and will never be heard of again

deceit in the second without end

the city's cold blood teaches us to survive
just keep my heart in your eyes and we'll stay alive

the third arrives...

before the leaves have fallen
before we lock the doors
there must be the third and last dance
this one will last forever
metropolis watches and thoughtfully smiles
she's taken you to your home

it can only take place
when the struggle between our children has ended
now the miracle and the sleeper know that the third is love

love is the dance of eternity
				

temptation -
why won't leave me alone ?
lurking every corner, everywhere i go
self control -
don't turn your back on me now
when i need you most
constant pressure tests my will
my will or my wont
my self control escapes from me still...
hypocrite -
how could you be so cruel
and expect my faith in return ?
resistance -
is not as hard as it seems
when you close the door
i spent so long trusting in you
i trust you forgot
just when i thought i believe in you...
it's time for me to deal
becoming all too real
living in fear -
why did you lie and pretend ?
this has come to an end
i'll never trust you again
it's time to make your amends
look in the mirror my friend
let's stare the problem right in the eye
it's plague me from coast to coast
racing the clock to please everyone
all but the ones who matters the most
reflections of reality
are slowly coming into view
how in the hell could you possibly forgive me ?
after all the hell i put you through
it's time for me to deal
becomin all too real
living in fear -
why'd i betray my friend ?
lying until the end
living life so pretend
it's time to make my amends
i'll never hurt you again
				

open your eyes
and turn off your mind
step right up folks
"step right up folks" [sample from ???]
and you will find
a growing trend
an epidemic
spread with zen
and hypodermics, yeah
yeah

just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes

the big machines take care of you
until you kill yourself
and then the sales go through the roof
calculated, formulated
feed my head with simple thoughts
and let me breathe instead of being taught
all bottled up and tearing at the seams
i'm bored
just let me breathe

a daily dose of emptyv
will flush your mind right down the drain
shannon hoon and kurt cobain,
make yourself a household name, yeah-yeah
yeah

just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes

the big machines take care of you
until you kill yourself
and then the sales go through the roof
calculated, formulated
feed my head with simple thoughts
and let me breathe instead of being taught
all bottled up and tearing at the seams
i'm bored
just let me breathe

strike up your best angst ridden posture, whoa
manufactured anger
let's not forget my legacy
all my heroes have failed me
now they're dead and buried, yeah

just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes

the big machines will take care of you
until the fashion fades
and the checks go through
my bankroll's red
and my face is blue
and still they'll turn their backs on me for someone new

feed my head
with some real thoughts
and let me think instead
of being taught
i'll say things
you won't believe
just stand back 
just let me breathe...
				

liquid tension experiment's song

[instrumental]
				

there was no time for pain
no energy for anger
the sightlessness of hatred sleeps away
walking winter streets alone
he stops and takes a breath
with confidence and self-control

i look at the world and see no understanding
i'm waiting to find some sense of strength
i'm begging from the bottom of my heart to show me understanding

i need to live life
like some people never will
so find me kindness
find me beauty
find me truth
when temptation brings me to my knees
and i lay here drained of strength
show me kindness
show me beauty
show me truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the difference
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beat makes all the difference
in learning to live
here before me is my soul
i'm learning to live
i won't give up
till i've no more to give

listening to the city
whispering its violence
i set out watching from above
the 90s bring new questions
new solutions to be found
i fell in love to be let down

once again we dance in the crowd
at times a step away
from a common fear that's all spread out
it won't listen to what you say
once you're touched you stand alone
to face the bitter fight
once i reached for love
and now i reach for life

another chance to lift my life
free the sensation in my heart
to ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
it brings inner peace within my mind,
as i'm lifted from where i've spilt my mind
i hear an innocent voice
i hear kindness, beauty and truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the diffrence
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beats makes all the difference
in learning to live
spread before you is your soul
so forever hold the dreams within our hearts
through nature inflexible grace
i'm learning to live
				

[instrumental]
				

[instrumental]
				

"love, just don't stare"
he used to say tome
every sunday morning
the spider in the window
the angel in the pool
the old man takes the poison
now the widow makes the rules
"so speak, i'm right here"
she used to say to me
no a word, not a word
judas on the ceiling
the devil in my bed
i guess easter's never coming
so i'll just wait inside my head
like a scream but sort of silence
living off my nightmares
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fear"
voices discussing me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined within your mind"
thought disorder
dream control
now they read my mind on the radio
but where was the garden of eden ?
i feel elated
i feel depressed
sex is death, death is sex
says it right hear on my crucifix
like a scream but sort of silent
living off my nightmares
voices protecting me
"good behavior brings the savior to his knees"
voices rejecting me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined to your mind"
i'm kneeling on the floor
staring at the wall
like the spider in the window
i wish that i could speak
is there fantasy in refuge ?
god in politicians ?
should i turn on my religion ?
these demons in my head tell me to
i'm lying here in bed
swear my skin is inside out
just another sunday morning
seen my diary on the newstand
seems we've lost the truth to the quicksand
it's a shame no one is praying
'cause this voices in my head keep saying...
"love, just don't stare"
"reveal the word, when you're supposed to"
withdrawn and introverted
infectiouly perverted
"being laughed at and confused keeps us pleasantly amused enough to stay"
maybe i'm just cassandra fleeting
twentieth century icon bleeding
willing to risk salvation
to escape from isolation
i'm witness to redemption
heard you speak but never listened
can you rid me of my secrets ?
deliver us from darkness ?
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fears"
voices discussing me
don't expect your own messiah
this neverworld which you desire
in only in your mind
				

a question well served
"is silence like a fever ?"
"a voice never heard ?"
"or a message with no receiver ?"
pray they won't ask
behind the stained glass
there's always one more mask
has man been a victim 
of his woman, of his father ?
if he elects not to bother,
will he suffocate their faith ?
desperate to fall
behind the great wall
that separates us all
when there is reason
tonight i'm awake
when there's no answer
arrive the silent man
if there is balance
tonight he's awake
if they have to suffer
there lies the silent man
				

there was no time for pain
no energy for anger
the sightlessness of hatred sleeps away
walking winter streets alone
he stops and takes a breath
with confidence and self-control

i look at the world and see no understanding
i'm waiting to find some sense of strength
i'm begging from the bottom of my heart to show me understanding

i need to live life
like some people never will
so find me kindness
find me beauty
find me truth
when temptation brings me to my knees
and i lay here drained of strength
show me kindness
show me beauty
show me truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the difference
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beat makes all the difference
in learning to live
here before me is my soul
i'm learning to live
i won't give up
till i've no more to give

listening to the city
whispering its violence
i set out watching from above
the 90s bring new questions
new solutions to be found
i fell in love to be let down

once again we dance in the crowd
at times a step away
from a common fear that's all spread out
it won't listen to what you say
once you're touched you stand alone
to face the bitter fight
once i reached for love
and now i reach for life

another chance to lift my life
free the sensation in my heart
to ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
it brings inner peace within my mind,
as i'm lifted from where i've spilt my mind
i hear an innocent voice
i hear kindness, beauty and truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the diffrence
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beats makes all the difference
in learning to live
spread before you is your soul
so forever hold the dreams within our hearts
through nature inflexible grace
i'm learning to live
				

[instrumental]
					

    i remember a time
    my frail, virgin mind
    watched the crimson sunrise
    imagined what it might find
    life was filled with wonder
    i felt the warm wind blow
    i must explore the boundaries
    transcend the depth of winter's snow
    innocence caressing me
    i never felt so young before
    there was so much life in me
    still i longed to search for more
    but those days are gone now
    changed like a leaf on a tree
    blown away forever
    into the cool autumn breeze
    the snow has now fallen
    and my sun's not so bright
    i struggle to hold on
    with the last of my might
    in my den of inequity
    viciousness and subtlety
    struggle to ease the pain
    struggle to find the sane
    ignorance surrounding me
    i've never been so filled with fear
    all my life's been drained from me
    the end is drawing near....
					

    'carpe diem, seize the day'
    i'll always remember
    the chill of november
    the news of the fall
    the sounds in the hall
    the clock on the wall ticking away
    'seize the day'
    i heard him say
    life will not always be this way
    look around
    hear the sounds
    cherish your life while you're still around

   "gather ye rosebuds while ye may,        [sample is james waterston from   ]
    old time is still a-flying;             [the film "dead poet's society".  ]
    and this same flower that smiles today, [from the poem "to the virgins, to]
    tomorrow will be dying."                [make much of time" by robert     ]
                                            [herrick.                         ]  

    we can learn from the past
    but those days are gone
    we can hope for the future
    but there might not be one
    the words stuck in my mind
    alive from what i've learned
    i have to seize the day
    to home i returned
    preparing for her flight
    i held with all my might
    fearing my deepest fright
    she walked into the night
    she turned for one last look
    she looked me in the eye
    i said, 'i love you...good-bye'

   "it's the most awful thing you'll        [various samples mainly john      ]
    ever hear."                             [voight from the film "table for  ]
   "if you're lying to me..."               [five", some are from the film    ]
   "oh, you dearly love her."               ["dead poet's society".           ]
   "...just have to leave... all our lives."
   "seize the day!"
   "something happened."
   "gather ye rosebuds while ye may."
   "she was killed."
					

[instrumental]
					

    so far or so it seems
    all is lost with nothing fulfilled
    off the pages and the t.v. screen
    another world where nothing's true
    tripping through the life fantastic
    lose a step and never get up
    left alone with a cold blank stare
    i feel like giving up
    i was blinded by a paradise
    utopia high in the sky
    a dream that only drowned me
    deep in sorrow, wondering why
    oh come let us adore him
    abuse and then ignore him
    no matter what, don't let him be
    let's feed upon his misery
    then string him up for all the world to see
    i'm sick of all you hypocrites
    holding me at bay
    and i don't need your sympathy
    to get me through the day
    seasons change and so can i
    hold on boy, no time to cry
    untie these strings, i'm climbing down
    i won't let them push me away
    oh come let us adore him
    abuse and then ignore him
    no matter what, don't let him be
    let's feed upon his misery
    now it's time for them to deal with me
					

[instrumental]
					

    i'm much wiser now
    a lifetime of memories
    run through my head
    they taught me how
    for better or worse, alive or dead
    i realize there's no turning back
    life goes on the offbeaten track
    i sit down with my son
    set to see the crimson sunset
    (gather ye rosebuds while ye may)
    many years have come and gone
    i've lived my life, but now must move on
    (gather ye rosebuds while ye may)
    he's my only one
    now that my time has come
    now that my life is done
    we look into the sun
    'seize the day and don't you cry,
    now it's time to say good-bye
    even though i'll be gone,
    i will live on, live on.'