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regression |
nicholas :
safe in the light that surrounds me
free of the fear and the pain
my subconscious mind
starts spinning through time
to rejoign the past once again
nothing seems real
i'm starting to feel
lost in the haze of a dream
and as i draw near
the scene becomes clear
like watching my life on a screen
hello victoria so glad to see you
my friend.
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strange deja vu |
nicholas :
subconscious strange sensation
unconscious relaxation
what a pleasant nightmare
and i can't wait to get there again
every time i close my eyes
there's another vivid surprise
another whole life waiting
chapters unfinished, fading
closer now- slowly coming into view
i've arrived- blinding sunshine beaming through
there's a house i'm drawn to
familiar settings nothing new
there's a pathway leading there
with a haunting chill in the air
there's a room at the top of the stairs
every i'm drawn up there
there's a girl in the mirror
her face is getting clearer
young child won't you tell me why i'm here ?
in her eyes- i sense a story never told
behind the disguise- there's something tearing
at her soul
victoria :
tonight i've been searching for it
a feeling that's deep inside me
tonight i've been searching for
the one that nobody knows
trying to break free
i just can't help myself
i'm feeling like i'm going out of my head
tears my heart into two
i'm not the one the sleeper thought he knew
nicholas :
back on my feet again
eyes open to the real world
metropolis surrounds me
the mirror's shattered the girl
why is this other life
haunting me every day
i'd break through to the other side
if i'd find the way
something's awfully familiar
the feeling's so hard to shake
could i have lived in that other world
it's a link that i'm destined to make
i'm still searching but i don't know what for
the missing key to unlock my mind's door
today i am searching for it
a feeling that won't go away
today i am searching for
the one that i only know
trying to break free
i just can't help myself
i'm feeling like i'm going out of my head
tears my heart into two
i'm not the one i thought i always knew
i just can't help myself
i'm feeling like i'm going out of my head
uncanny, strange deja-vu
but i don't mind- i hope to find the truth
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through my words |
nicholas :
all your eyes have ever seen
all you've ever heard
is etched upon my memory
is spoken through my words
all that i take with me
is all you've left behind
we're sharing one eternity
living in two minds
linked by an endless thread
impossible to break
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fatal tragedy |
nicholas :
alone at night
i feel so strange
i need to find
all the answers to my dreams
when i sleep at night
i hear the cries
what does this mean ?
i shut the door and traceled to another home
i met an older man, he seemed to be alone
i felt that i could trust him
he talked to me that night ;
lad did you know a girl was murdered here ?
this fatal tragedy was talked about for years
victoria's gone forever
only memories remains
she passed away
she was so young
without love
without truth
there can be no turning back
without faith
without hope
there can be no peace of mind
as the night went on
i started to find my way
i learned about a tragedy
a mystery still today
i tried to get more answers
but he said, you're on your own
the he turned away and left me
as i stand there all alone
he said, you'll know the truth
as your future days unfold
without love
without truth
there can be no turning back
without faith
without hope
there can be no peace of mind
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beyond this life |
headline : murder, young girl killed
desperate shooting at echoe's hill
dreadful ending, killer died
evidently suicide
a witness heard a horrifying sound
he ran to find a woman dead and
lying on the ground
standing by her was a man
nervous, shaking, gun in hand
witness says he tried to help
but he'd turned the weapon on himself
his body fell across that poor young girl
after shooting out in vain
the witness ran to call for assistance
a sad close to a broken love affair
our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are
our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are
she wanted love forever
but he had another plan
he fell into an evil way
she had to let him down
she said, i can't love a wayward man
she may have found a reason to forgive
if he had only tried to change
was their fatal meeting prearranged ?
had a violent struggle taken place ?
there was every sign that lead here
witness found a switchblade on the ground
was the victim unaware ?
they continued to investigate
they found a note in the killer's pocket
it could have been a suivide letter
maybe he had lost her love
i feel there's only one thing left to do
i'd sooner take my life away
than live with losing you
our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are
our deeds have traveled far
what we have been is what we are
all that we learn this time
is carried beyond this life
all that we learn this time
is carried beyond this life
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through her eyes |
nicholas :
she never really had a chance
on that fateful moonlit night
sacrificed without a fight
a victim of her circumstance
now that i've become aware
and i've exposed this tragedy
a sadness grows inside of me
it all seems so unfair
i'm learning all about my life
by looking through her eyes
just beyond the churchyard gates
where the grass is overgrown
i saw the writing on her stone
i felt like i would suffocate
in loving memory of our child
so innocent, eyes open wide
i flet so empty as i cried
like part of me had died
i'm learning all about my life
by looking through her eyes
and as her image
wandered through my head
i wept just like a baby
as i lay awake in bed
and i know what it's like
to lose someone you love
and this felt just the same
she wasn't given any choice
desperation stole her voice
i've been given so much more in life
i've got a son, i've got a wife
i had to suffer one last time
to grieve for her and say goodbye
relive the anguish of my part
to find out who i was at last
the door has opened wide
i'm turning with the tide
looking through her eyes
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home |
the sleeper :
shine- lake of fire
lines takes me higher
my mind drips desire
confined and overtide
living this charade
is getting me nowhere
i can't shake this charade
the city's cold blood calls me home ...
home ... it's what i long for
back home ... where i belong
the city- it calls to me
decadent scenes from my memory
sorrow- eternity
my demons are coming to drown me
help- i'm falling, i'm crawling
i can't keep away from its clutch
can't have it this habit
it's calling me back to my home
the miracle :
i remember the first time she came to me
poured her soul out all night and cry ...
i remember i was told there's a new love that's born
for each one that has died ...
i never thought that i
could carry on with this lie
but i can't resist myself
no matter how hard i try
living their other life
is getting there nowhere
i'll make her my wife
her sweet temptation calls me home ...
home ... it's what i long for
my home ... where she belongs
her ecstasy- means so much to me
even deceiving my own blood
victoria watches and thoughtfully smiles
she's taking me to my home
help- he's my brother, but i love her
i can't keep away from her touch
deception, dishonor
it's calling me back to my home
nicholas :
her story- it holds the key
unlocking dreams from my memory
solving this mystery
is everything that is a part of me
help- regression, obsession
i can't keep away from its clutch
leave nodoubt, to find out
it's calling me back to my home
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one last time |
nicholas :
it doesn't make any sense
this tragic ending
in spite of the evidence
there's something still missing
heard some of the rumors told
a taste of one's wealth
did victoria wound his soul ?
did she bid him farewell
victoria :
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
until we fade away
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
we slowy fade away
nicholas :
here i am inside his home
it holds the many clues
to my suspicions
and as i'm standing here right now
i'm finally shown what i always known
coincidence i can't believe
as my childhood dreams slowly come true
are these her memories
awakened through my eyes
this house has brought back to life
an open door
i walk on through
into his bedroom
feeling has cold as outside
the walls disapear
to some woman who's screaming
a man pleads forgiveness
his words i cannot hear
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the spirit carries on |
nicholas :
where did we come from ?
why are we here ?
where do we go when we die ?
what lies beyond
and what lay before ?
is anything certain in life ?
they say, life's too short
the here and the now
and you're only given one shot
but could there be more,
have i lived before,
or could this be all that we've got ?
if i die tomorrow
i'd be allright
because i believe
that after we're gone
the spirit carries on
i used to be frightened of dying
i used to think death was an end
but that was before
i'm not scarred anymore
i know that my soul will transcend
i may never find all the answers
i may never understand why
i may never prove
what i know to be true
but i know that i still have to try
if i die tomorrow
i'd be allright
because i believe
that after we're gone
the spirit carries on
victoria :
move on, be brave
don't weep at my grave
because i am no longer here
but please never let
your memory of me disappear
nicholas :
safe in the light that's surrounds me
free of the fear and the pain
my questioning mind
has helped me to find
the meaning in my life again
victoria's real
i finaly feel
at peace with the girl in my dreams
and now that i'm here
it's perfectly clear
i found out what all this means
if i die tomorrow
i'd be allright
because i believe
that after we're gone
the spirit carries on
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finally free |
the miracle :
friday evening
the blood still on my hands
to think that we would leave me now
for that un greatful man
solesurvivor
no witness to the crime
i must act fast to cover up
i think that there's still time
he'd seem hopeless and lost with this note
they'll buy into the words that i wrote
this feeling inside me
finally found my love, i've finally broke free
no longer torn in two
i'd take my own life before losing you
victoria :
feeling good this friday afternoon
i ran into julian
said we'd get together soon
he always had my heart
he needs to know
i'll break free of the miracle
it's time for him to go
this feeling inside me
finally found my love, i've finally broke free
no longer torn in two
he'd kill his brother if he only knew
their love renewed
they'd rendezvous
in a pathway out of view
they thought no one knew
then came a shot out of the night
the sleeper :
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
until we fade away
one last time
we'll lay down today
one last time
we fade away
as their bodies lies still
and the ending draws near
spirits rise through the air
all their fear disappear, it all becomes clear
a blinding light comes into view
an old soul exchanged for a new
a familar voice comes shining through ...
nicholas :
this feeling inside me
finally found my life, i'm finally free
no longer torn in two
i learned about my life by living through you
this feeling inside me
finally found my life, i'm finally free
no longer torn in two
living my own life by learning from you
we'll meet again my friend someday soon ...
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metropolis part i |
the smile of dawn
arrived early may
she carried a gift from her home
the night shed a tear
to tell her of fear
and of sorrow and pain
she'll never outgrow
death is the first dance, eternal
there's no more freedom
the both of you will be confined to this mind
i was told there's a miracle for each day that i try
i was told there's a new love that' born for each one that has died
i was told there'd be no one to call on when i feel alone and afraid
i was told if you dream of the next world
you'll find yourself swimming in a lake of fire
as a child, i thought i could live without pain withpout sorrow
as a man i've found it's all caught up with me
i'm asleep yet i'm so afraid
somewhere like a scene of a memory
there's a picture worth a thousand words
eluding stares from faces before me
it hides away and will never be heard of again
deceit in the second without end
the city's cold blood teaches us to survive
just keep my heart in your eyes and we'll stay alive
the third arrives...
before the leaves have fallen
before we lock the doors
there must be the third and last dance
this one will last forever
metropolis watches and thoughtfully smiles
she's taken you to your home
it can only take place
when the struggle between our children has ended
now the miracle and the sleeper know that the third is love
love is the dance of eternity
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the mirror |
temptation -
why won't leave me alone ?
lurking every corner, everywhere i go
self control -
don't turn your back on me now
when i need you most
constant pressure tests my will
my will or my wont
my self control escapes from me still...
hypocrite -
how could you be so cruel
and expect my faith in return ?
resistance -
is not as hard as it seems
when you close the door
i spent so long trusting in you
i trust you forgot
just when i thought i believe in you...
it's time for me to deal
becoming all too real
living in fear -
why did you lie and pretend ?
this has come to an end
i'll never trust you again
it's time to make your amends
look in the mirror my friend
let's stare the problem right in the eye
it's plague me from coast to coast
racing the clock to please everyone
all but the ones who matters the most
reflections of reality
are slowly coming into view
how in the hell could you possibly forgive me ?
after all the hell i put you through
it's time for me to deal
becomin all too real
living in fear -
why'd i betray my friend ?
lying until the end
living life so pretend
it's time to make my amends
i'll never hurt you again
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just let me breath |
open your eyes
and turn off your mind
step right up folks
"step right up folks" [sample from ???]
and you will find
a growing trend
an epidemic
spread with zen
and hypodermics, yeah
yeah
just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes
the big machines take care of you
until you kill yourself
and then the sales go through the roof
calculated, formulated
feed my head with simple thoughts
and let me breathe instead of being taught
all bottled up and tearing at the seams
i'm bored
just let me breathe
a daily dose of emptyv
will flush your mind right down the drain
shannon hoon and kurt cobain,
make yourself a household name, yeah-yeah
yeah
just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes
the big machines take care of you
until you kill yourself
and then the sales go through the roof
calculated, formulated
feed my head with simple thoughts
and let me breathe instead of being taught
all bottled up and tearing at the seams
i'm bored
just let me breathe
strike up your best angst ridden posture, whoa
manufactured anger
let's not forget my legacy
all my heroes have failed me
now they're dead and buried, yeah
just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes
the big machines will take care of you
until the fashion fades
and the checks go through
my bankroll's red
and my face is blue
and still they'll turn their backs on me for someone new
feed my head
with some real thoughts
and let me think instead
of being taught
i'll say things
you won't believe
just stand back
just let me breathe...
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acid rain |
liquid tension experiment's song |
[instrumental]
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another day |
there was no time for pain
no energy for anger
the sightlessness of hatred sleeps away
walking winter streets alone
he stops and takes a breath
with confidence and self-control
i look at the world and see no understanding
i'm waiting to find some sense of strength
i'm begging from the bottom of my heart to show me understanding
i need to live life
like some people never will
so find me kindness
find me beauty
find me truth
when temptation brings me to my knees
and i lay here drained of strength
show me kindness
show me beauty
show me truth
the way your heart sounds makes all the difference
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beat makes all the difference
in learning to live
here before me is my soul
i'm learning to live
i won't give up
till i've no more to give
listening to the city
whispering its violence
i set out watching from above
the 90s bring new questions
new solutions to be found
i fell in love to be let down
once again we dance in the crowd
at times a step away
from a common fear that's all spread out
it won't listen to what you say
once you're touched you stand alone
to face the bitter fight
once i reached for love
and now i reach for life
another chance to lift my life
free the sensation in my heart
to ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
it brings inner peace within my mind,
as i'm lifted from where i've spilt my mind
i hear an innocent voice
i hear kindness, beauty and truth
the way your heart sounds makes all the diffrence
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beats makes all the difference
in learning to live
spread before you is your soul
so forever hold the dreams within our hearts
through nature inflexible grace
i'm learning to live
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a mind behind itself ii : voices |
"love, just don't stare"
he used to say tome
every sunday morning
the spider in the window
the angel in the pool
the old man takes the poison
now the widow makes the rules
"so speak, i'm right here"
she used to say to me
no a word, not a word
judas on the ceiling
the devil in my bed
i guess easter's never coming
so i'll just wait inside my head
like a scream but sort of silence
living off my nightmares
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fear"
voices discussing me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined within your mind"
thought disorder
dream control
now they read my mind on the radio
but where was the garden of eden ?
i feel elated
i feel depressed
sex is death, death is sex
says it right hear on my crucifix
like a scream but sort of silent
living off my nightmares
voices protecting me
"good behavior brings the savior to his knees"
voices rejecting me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined to your mind"
i'm kneeling on the floor
staring at the wall
like the spider in the window
i wish that i could speak
is there fantasy in refuge ?
god in politicians ?
should i turn on my religion ?
these demons in my head tell me to
i'm lying here in bed
swear my skin is inside out
just another sunday morning
seen my diary on the newstand
seems we've lost the truth to the quicksand
it's a shame no one is praying
'cause this voices in my head keep saying...
"love, just don't stare"
"reveal the word, when you're supposed to"
withdrawn and introverted
infectiouly perverted
"being laughed at and confused keeps us pleasantly amused enough to stay"
maybe i'm just cassandra fleeting
twentieth century icon bleeding
willing to risk salvation
to escape from isolation
i'm witness to redemption
heard you speak but never listened
can you rid me of my secrets ?
deliver us from darkness ?
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fears"
voices discussing me
don't expect your own messiah
this neverworld which you desire
in only in your mind
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a mind behind itself iii : the silent man |
a question well served
"is silence like a fever ?"
"a voice never heard ?"
"or a message with no receiver ?"
pray they won't ask
behind the stained glass
there's always one more mask
has man been a victim
of his woman, of his father ?
if he elects not to bother,
will he suffocate their faith ?
desperate to fall
behind the great wall
that separates us all
when there is reason
tonight i'm awake
when there's no answer
arrive the silent man
if there is balance
tonight he's awake
if they have to suffer
there lies the silent man
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learning to live |
there was no time for pain
no energy for anger
the sightlessness of hatred sleeps away
walking winter streets alone
he stops and takes a breath
with confidence and self-control
i look at the world and see no understanding
i'm waiting to find some sense of strength
i'm begging from the bottom of my heart to show me understanding
i need to live life
like some people never will
so find me kindness
find me beauty
find me truth
when temptation brings me to my knees
and i lay here drained of strength
show me kindness
show me beauty
show me truth
the way your heart sounds makes all the difference
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beat makes all the difference
in learning to live
here before me is my soul
i'm learning to live
i won't give up
till i've no more to give
listening to the city
whispering its violence
i set out watching from above
the 90s bring new questions
new solutions to be found
i fell in love to be let down
once again we dance in the crowd
at times a step away
from a common fear that's all spread out
it won't listen to what you say
once you're touched you stand alone
to face the bitter fight
once i reached for love
and now i reach for life
another chance to lift my life
free the sensation in my heart
to ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
it brings inner peace within my mind,
as i'm lifted from where i've spilt my mind
i hear an innocent voice
i hear kindness, beauty and truth
the way your heart sounds makes all the diffrence
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beats makes all the difference
in learning to live
spread before you is your soul
so forever hold the dreams within our hearts
through nature inflexible grace
i'm learning to live
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a change of seasons |
i the crimson sunrise |
[instrumental]
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ii innoncence |
i remember a time
my frail, virgin mind
watched the crimson sunrise
imagined what it might find
life was filled with wonder
i felt the warm wind blow
i must explore the boundaries
transcend the depth of winter's snow
innocence caressing me
i never felt so young before
there was so much life in me
still i longed to search for more
but those days are gone now
changed like a leaf on a tree
blown away forever
into the cool autumn breeze
the snow has now fallen
and my sun's not so bright
i struggle to hold on
with the last of my might
in my den of inequity
viciousness and subtlety
struggle to ease the pain
struggle to find the sane
ignorance surrounding me
i've never been so filled with fear
all my life's been drained from me
the end is drawing near....
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iii carpe diem |
'carpe diem, seize the day'
i'll always remember
the chill of november
the news of the fall
the sounds in the hall
the clock on the wall ticking away
'seize the day'
i heard him say
life will not always be this way
look around
hear the sounds
cherish your life while you're still around
"gather ye rosebuds while ye may, [sample is james waterston from ]
old time is still a-flying; [the film "dead poet's society". ]
and this same flower that smiles today, [from the poem "to the virgins, to]
tomorrow will be dying." [make much of time" by robert ]
[herrick. ]
we can learn from the past
but those days are gone
we can hope for the future
but there might not be one
the words stuck in my mind
alive from what i've learned
i have to seize the day
to home i returned
preparing for her flight
i held with all my might
fearing my deepest fright
she walked into the night
she turned for one last look
she looked me in the eye
i said, 'i love you...good-bye'
"it's the most awful thing you'll [various samples mainly john ]
ever hear." [voight from the film "table for ]
"if you're lying to me..." [five", some are from the film ]
"oh, you dearly love her." ["dead poet's society". ]
"...just have to leave... all our lives."
"seize the day!"
"something happened."
"gather ye rosebuds while ye may."
"she was killed."
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iv the darkest of winters |
[instrumental]
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v another world |
so far or so it seems
all is lost with nothing fulfilled
off the pages and the t.v. screen
another world where nothing's true
tripping through the life fantastic
lose a step and never get up
left alone with a cold blank stare
i feel like giving up
i was blinded by a paradise
utopia high in the sky
a dream that only drowned me
deep in sorrow, wondering why
oh come let us adore him
abuse and then ignore him
no matter what, don't let him be
let's feed upon his misery
then string him up for all the world to see
i'm sick of all you hypocrites
holding me at bay
and i don't need your sympathy
to get me through the day
seasons change and so can i
hold on boy, no time to cry
untie these strings, i'm climbing down
i won't let them push me away
oh come let us adore him
abuse and then ignore him
no matter what, don't let him be
let's feed upon his misery
now it's time for them to deal with me
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vi the inevitable summer |
[instrumental]
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vii the crimson sunset |
i'm much wiser now
a lifetime of memories
run through my head
they taught me how
for better or worse, alive or dead
i realize there's no turning back
life goes on the offbeaten track
i sit down with my son
set to see the crimson sunset
(gather ye rosebuds while ye may)
many years have come and gone
i've lived my life, but now must move on
(gather ye rosebuds while ye may)
he's my only one
now that my time has come
now that my life is done
we look into the sun
'seize the day and don't you cry,
now it's time to say good-bye
even though i'll be gone,
i will live on, live on.'
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