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i remember a time
my frail, virgin mind
watched the crimson sunrise
imagined what it might find
life was filled with wonder
i felt the warm wind blow
i must explore the boundaries
transcend the depth of winter's snow
innocence caressing me
i never felt so young before
there was so much life in me
still i longed to search for more
but those days are gone now
changed like a leaf on a tree
blown away forever
into the cool autumn breeze
the snow has now fallen
and my sun's not so bright
i struggle to hold on
with the last of my might
in my den of inequity
viciousness and subtlety
struggle to ease the pain
struggle to find the sane
ignorance surrounding me
i've never been so filled with fear
all my life's been drained from me
the end is drawing near....
				

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open your eyes
and turn off your mind
step right up folks
  "step right up folks" 
and you will find
a growing trend
an epidemic
spread with zen
and hypodermics, yeah
yeah

just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes

the big machines take care of you
until you kill yourself
and then the sales go through the roof
calculated, formulated
feed my head with simple thoughts
and let me breathe instead of being taught
all bottled up and tearing at the seams
i'm bored
just let me breathe

a daily dose of emptyv
will flush your mind right down the drain
shannon hoon and kurt cobain,
make yourself a household name, yeah-yeah
yeah

just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes

the big machines take care of you
until you kill yourself
and then the sales go through the roof
calculated, formulated
feed my head with simple thoughts
and let me breathe instead of being taught
all bottled up and tearing at the seams
i'm bored
just let me breathe

strike up your best angst ridden posture, whoa
manufactured anger
let's not forget my legacy
all my heroes have failed me
now they're dead and buried, yeah

just close your mind
you can find all you need with your eyes

the big machines will take care of you
until the fashion fades
and the checks go through
my bankroll's red
and my face is blue
and still they'll turn their backs on me for someone new

feed my head
with some real thoughts
and let me think instead
of being taught
i'll say things
you won't believe
just stand back 
just let me breathe...
				

"love, just don't stare"
he used to say tome
every sunday morning
the spider in the window
the angel in the pool
the old man takes the poison
now the widow makes the rules
"so speak, i'm right here"
she used to say to me
no a word, not a word
judas on the ceiling
the devil in my bed
i guess easter's never coming
so i'll just wait inside my head
like a scream but sort of silence
living off my nightmares
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fear"
voices discussing me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined within your mind"
thought disorder
dream control
now they read my mind on the radio
but where was the garden of eden ?
i feel elated
i feel depressed
sex is death, death is sex
says it right hear on my crucifix
like a scream but sort of silent
living off my nightmares
voices protecting me
"good behavior brings the savior to his knees"
voices rejecting me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined to your mind"
i'm kneeling on the floor
staring at the wall
like the spider in the window
i wish that i could speak
is there fantasy in refuge ?
god in politicians ?
should i turn on my religion ?
these demons in my head tell me to
i'm lying here in bed
swear my skin is inside out
just another sunday morning
seen my diary on the newstand
seems we've lost the truth to the quicksand
it's a shame no one is praying
'cause this voices in my head keep saying...
"love, just don't stare"
"reveal the word, when you're supposed to"
withdrawn and introverted
infectiouly perverted
"being laughed at and confused keeps us pleasantly amused enough to stay"
maybe i'm just cassandra fleeting
twentieth century icon bleeding
willing to risk salvation
to escape from isolation
i'm witness to redemption
heard you speak but never listened
can you rid me of my secrets ?
deliver us from darkness ?
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fears"
voices discussing me
don't expect your own messiah
this neverworld which you desire
in only in your mind
				

just let me catch your breath...
i've heard the promises
i've seen the mistakes
i've had my fair share of tough breaks
i need a new voice, a new law, a new way
take the time, reevaluate
it's time to pick up the pieces,
go back to square one
i think it's time for a change

there is something that i feel
to be something that is real
i feel the heat within my mind
and craft new changes with my eyes
giving freely wandering promises
a place with decisions i'll fashion
i won't waste another breath
you can feel the waves coming on
(it's time to take the time)
let them destroy or carry you on
(it's time to take the time)
you're fighting the weight of the world
but no one can save you this time
close your eyes
you can find all you need in your mind

the unbroken spirit
obscured an disquiet
finds clearness this trial demands
and at the end of this day sighs an anxious relief
for the fortune lies still in his hands

if there's a pensive fear, a wasted year
a man must learn to cope
if his obsession's real,
suppression that he feels must turn to hope

life is no more assuring than love
(it's time to take the time)
there are no answers from voices above
(it's time to take the time)
you're fighting the weight of the world
and no one can save you this time
close your eyes
you can find all you're need in your mind

i close my eyes
and feel the water rise around me
drown the beat of time
let my senses fall away
i can see much clearer now, i'm blind

find all you need in your mind
if you take the time
				

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sometimes, for a moment of bliss
and the passion, we're craving
there's a message we miss
sometimes when, the spirits left alone
we must believe in something
to find if we've grown

tragic reflex, shattered calm
static progress, senses gone
numb awareness, final psalm

swept away with the tide
  (swept away with the tide)
through the holes in my hands
  (through the holes in my hands)
crown of thorns at my side
  (crown of thorns at my side, yeah, yeah, yeah)
drawing lines in the sand

sometimes, if you're perfectly still
you can hear the virgin weeping
for the savior of your will
sometimes, your castles in the air
and the fantasies you're seeking
are the crosses you bear

sacred conflict, blessed prize
weeping crosses, stainless eyes
desperate addict, faith disguised 

swept away with the tide
  (swept away with the tide)
through the holes in my hands
  (through the holes in my hands, yeah)
crown of thorns at my side
  (crown of thorns at my side)
drawing lines in the sand

we fabricate our demons
invite them into our homes
have supper with the aliens
and fight the war alone
we conjure up our skeletons
enlist the den of thieves
frightened from our closets
then sewn upon our sleeves

in the stream of consciousness
there is a river crying
living comes much easier
once we admit
we're dying

sometimes, in the wreckage of our wake
there's a bitterness we harbor
and hate for hatred's sake
sometimes we dig an early grave
and crucify our instincts
for the hope we couldn't save

sometimes a view from sinless eyes
centers our perspective
and pacifies our cries
sometimes the anguish we survive
and the mysteries we nurture
are the fabrics of our lives

swept away with the tide
  (swept away with the tide, yeah)
through the holes in my hands
  (through the holes, holes in my hands)
crown of thorns at my side
  (crown of thorns in my side)
drawing lines in the sand
				

to rise, to fall
to hurt, to hate
to want, to hate
to heal, to save
can't hear it
we fear it
awareness won't come near it
distractive
reactive
disguised in spite of time
i never bared my emotions
my passion always strong
i never lost my devotion
but somewhere fate went wrong
can't let them rape me again
your venom's not my family here
won't let them fill me with
fatalistic remedies
what if the rest of the world
was hopelessly blinded by fear ?
where would my sanctity live ?
suddenly nobody cares,
it's never enough
you're wasting your time
isn't there something i could say ?
you don't understand
you're closing me out
how can we live our lives this way ?
you tell me i'm wrong
i'm risking my life
still, i have nothing in return
i show you my hands
you don't see the scars
maybe you'll leave me here to burn
what if the rest of the world
was hopelessly drowning in vain ?
where would our self pity run ?
suddenly everyone cares,
blood... heal me
fear... change me
belief will always save me
blood... swearing
fear... staring
conviction made aware
give up on misery
turn your back on dissident
leave their distrust behind
wash your hands of regret
do you feel you don't know me anymore ?
and do you feel i'm afraid of your love ?
and how come you don't want me asking ?
and how come my heart's not invited ?
you say you want everuone happy
well, we're not laughing,
and how come you don't understand me ?
and how come i don't understand you ?
thirty years say we're in this together
so open your eyes,
people in prayer for me
sometimes i feel i should face this alone
my soul exposed
it calms me yo know that i won't
blood... heal me
fear... change me
belief will always save me
blood... swearing
fear... staring
conviction made aware
learning from misery
starring back at dissent
leaving distrust behind
i'm inspired and content
				

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under the sun, there is nothing to hide
under the moon, a stranger waits inside
people disappear
the music fades away
splashing through the rain
i'll dream with them one day

it's raining, raining,
on the streets of new york city
it's raining, raining, raining, deep in heaven

i may have wasted all those years
they're not worth their time in tears
i may have spent too long in darkness
in the warmth of my fears

take a look at yourself
not at anyone else
and tell me what you see
i know the air is cold
i know the streets are cruel
but i'll enjoy the ride today

it's raining, raining,
on the streets of new york city
it's raining, raining, raining deep in heaven
raining deep in heaven

i may have wasted all those years
they're not worth their time in tears
i may have spent too long in darkness
in the warmth of my fears

as i walk through all my myths
rising and sinking like the waves
with my thoughts wrapped around me
through a trial of tears

hidden by disguise, stumbling in a world
feeling uninspired, he gets into his car
not within his eyes to see, open up, open up
not much better than the man you hate
					

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still awake
i continue to move along
cultivating my own nonsense
welcome to the wasteland
where you'll find ashes, nothing but ashes
still awake
bringing change, bringing movement, bringing life
a silent prayer thrown away,
disappearing in the air
rising, sinking, raining deep inside me
nowhere to turn,
i look for a way back home

it's raining, raining, raining deep in heaven
it's raining, raining, raining deep in heaven
it's raining, raining, raining deep in heaven
it's raining, raining, raining deep in heaven
					

he's just the kind of man
you hear about
who leaves his family for
an easy out
they never saw the signs
he never said a word
he couldn't take another day

carry me to the shoreline
bury me in the sand
walk me across the water
and maybe you'll understand

once the stone
you're crawling under
is lifted off your shoulders
once the cloud that's raining
over your head disappears
the noise that you'll hear
is the crashing down of hollow years

she's not the kind of girl
you hear about
she'll never want another
she'll never be without
she'll give you all the signs
she'll tell you everything
then turn around and walk away

carry me to the shoreline
bury me in the sand
  (into the waves)
walk me across the water
and maybe you'll understand

once the stone
you're crawling under
  (once the stone)
is lifted off your shoulders
once the cloud that's raining
over your head disappears
the noise that you'll hear
is the crashing down of hollow years

carry me to the shoreline
bury me in the sand
  (into the waves)
walk me across the water
and maybe you'll understand

once the stone
you're crawling under
is lifted off your shoulders
once the cloud that's raining
over your head disappears
the noise that you'll hear
is the crashing down of hollow years

once the stone
you're crawling under
once the stone
you're crawling under
  (the sound you'll hear,)
once the stone
  (the crashing)
you're crawling under
  (down of hollow years)
once the stone
you're crawling under
once the stone
you're crawling under
once the stone
you're crawling under
  (the sound you'll hear, the crashing down of hollow years)
				

i was sitting on the edge of his bed
staring at the headlines on the paper
he said, 'look at poor gene kelly
i guess he won't be singing in the rain.'
you can take away my heroes
can you take away my pain

take away my pain
leave the cold outside
please don't let it rain
don't stumble on my pride
take away my pain
i'm not frightened anymore
just stay with me tonight
i'm tired of this fight
soon i'll be knocking at your door

she was standing by the edge of his bed
staring at the message on their faces
he said, 'what else can you do, babe?
i guess i won't be coming home again.'
they just took away all my promises
make them take away my pain

take away my pain
leave the cold outside
please don't let it rain
don't stumble on my pride
take away my pain
i'm not frightened anymore
just stay with me tonight
i'm tired of this fight
soon i'll be knocking at your door

his final scene
the actor bows
and all those years
are gone somehow
the crowd applauds
the curtain falls

i was standing by the edge of the water
i noticed my reflection in the waves
then i saw you looking back at me
and i knew that for a moment
you were calling out my name
you took away my hero
will you take away my pain

take away my pain
let the cold inside
it's time to let it rain
there's nothing left to hide
take away my pain
i'm not frightened anymore
i'm learning to survive
without you in my life
til you come knocking at my door...
				

silence disguised
i watch you
show me the hurt
that haunts you
would you despise the thrill
if all you hide were mine ?
i can't hold on any longer
these feelings keep growing stronger
echoes that deafen the mind
will bury my voice in their wake
caught in a web
removed from the world
hanging onby a thread
spinning the lies
divised in my head
i've seen the path
the one you take
shows the truth
for you to make
this turn of phrase
we might not see
is the thirst of desire
found so easily
try to push me 'round
the world some more
and make me live in fear
i bare all that i am
made of now
attractive i don't care
'cause even when i danced with life
no one was there to share
does this voice the wounds of your soul ?
caught in a web
removed from the world
hanging on by a thread
spinning the lies
devised in my head
tried to live the life
youlive and saw
it doesn't work for me
i bare all that i am
made of now
attractive, i can't be
inside the dance of life is one
i'll never hold to me
you can't heal the wounds of my soul
caught in a web
refused by the world
hanging on by a thread
spinning a cage
denied and misread
				

daybreak
at the bottom of lake
it's a hundred degree's i can't breeth
and i won't get out
'til i figure it out
thought i'm weak like i can't believe
so you tell me "trust me" i can't trust you
just let me show you
but i gotta work it out in a shadow of doubt
'cause i don't know if i know you
doing fine but i don't waste my time
tell me what it is you want to say
you sin, you win, just let me in - hurry
i've been out in the rain all day
so you tell me "trust me" i can't trust you
as far as i can throw you
and i'm trying to get out of a shadow of doubt
'cause i don't know if i know you
don't tell me you wanted me
don't tell me you thought of me
i won't, i sware i won't
(did)
i'll try, i sware i'll try
(lie)
mother mary quite contrary
kiss the boys and makes then wary
things are getting just a little bit scary
it's awonder i can still breathe
never been much of a doubting thomas
but nothing breaks like a broken promise
you tell me 'bout your two more coming
but once is just enough for me
i had gotten used to being a soul destroyed
she comes in apparently to fill the void
all dogs need a leash and at least i forgot it
and she would never hurt me though she's never said it
but i'm gonna ask her today
i din't wanna scare her away
your town, i'm all alone
and i just can't stare at the phone
i wanna talk about lifelong mistakes
and you can tell your stepfather i said so
				

there, there it is 
i swear he's gonna murder that poor kid 
wait, i hear it again 
don't turn on the lights until we 
hear the way it ends 

under peruvian skies 
vanessa regretfully waits 
the story unfolds in her eyes 
where midnight hysteria's 
no big surprise 
battered and bruised 
always confusing 
the love that she's losing for hate 
poor vanessa 
poor, poor vanessa 

hey, i hope you know 
i'm taking all of this with me when i go 
shame, you're not to blame 
i'm the monster you created 
in your daddy's name 

under peruvian skies 
vanessa regretfully waits 
the story unfolds in her eyes 
where midnight hysteria's 
no big surprise 
battered and bruised 
always confusing 
the love that she's losing for hate 
poor vanessa 
poor vanessa 

terror by night 
liar by day 
telling her secrets 
won't take them away 

under peruvian skies 
vanessa regretfully waits 
the story unfolds in her eyes 
where midnight hysteria's 
no big surprise 
battered and bruised 
always confusing 
the love that she's losing for hate
				

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lost in the shy
clouds roll by and i roll with them
arrows fly
seas increase and then fall again

this world is spinning around me
this world is spinning without me
every day sends future to past
every breath leaves me one less to my last

watch the sparrow falling
gives new meaning to it all
if not today nor yet tomorrow then some other day

i'll take seven lives for on
and then my only father's son
as sure as i did ever love him
i am not afraid

this world is spinning around me
the whole world keeps spinning around me
all life is future to past
every breath leaves me one less to my last

pull me under pull me under
pull me under i'm not afraid
all that i feel is honor and spite
all i can do is set it right

dust fills my eyes
clouds roll by and i roll with them
centuries cry
orders fly and i fall again

this world is spinning inside me
the whole world is spinning inside of me
every day sends future to past
every step brings me closer to my last

pull me under pull me under
pull me under i'm not afraid
living my life too much in the sun
only until your will is done
				

the smile of dawn
arrived early may
she carried a gift from her home
the night shed a tear
to tell her of fear
and of sorrow and pain
she'll never outgrow

death is the first dance, eternal

there's no more freedom
the both of you will be confined to this mind

i was told there's a miracle for each day that i try
i was told there's a new love that' born for each one that has died
i was told there'd be no one to call on when i feel alone and afraid
i was told if you dream of the next world
you'll find yourself swimming in a lake of fire

as a child, i thought i could live without pain withpout sorrow
as a man i've found it's all caught up with me
i'm asleep yet i'm so afraid

somewhere like a scene of a memory
there's a picture worth a thousand words
eluding stares from faces before me
it hides away and will never be heard of again

deceit in the second without end

the city's cold blood teaches us to survive
just keep my heart in your eyes and we'll stay alive

the third arrives...

before the leaves have fallen
before we lock the doors
there must be the third and last dance
this one will last forever
metropolis watches and thoughtfully smiles
she's taken you to your home

it can only take place
when the struggle between our children has ended
now the miracle and the sleeper know that the third is love
				

there was no time for pain
no energy for anger
the sightlessness of hatred sleeps away
walking winter streets alone
he stops and takes a breath
with confidence and self-control

i look at the world and see no understanding
i'm waiting to find some sense of strength
i'm begging from the bottom of my heart to show me understanding

i need to live life
like some people never will
so find me kindness
find me beauty
find me truth
when temptation brings me to my knees
and i lay here drained of strength
show me kindness
show me beauty
show me truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the difference
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beat makes all the difference
in learning to live
here before me is my soul
i'm learning to live
i won't give up
till i've no more to give

listening to the city
whispering its violence
i set out watching from above
the 90s bring new questions
new solutions to be found
i fell in love to be let down

once again we dance in the crowd
at times a step away
from a common fear that's all spread out
it won't listen to what you say
once you're touched you stand alone
to face the bitter fight
once i reached for love
and now i reach for life

another chance to lift my life
free the sensation in my heart
to ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
it brings inner peace within my mind,
as i'm lifted from where i've spilt my mind
i hear an innocent voice
i hear kindness, beauty and truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the diffrence
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beats makes all the difference
in learning to live
spread before you is your soul
so forever hold the dreams within our hearts
through nature inflexible grace
i'm learning to live
				

i'm much wiser now 
a lifetime of memories run through my head 
they taught me how for better or worse, alive or dead 
i realize there's no turning back 
life goes on the offbeaten track 
i sit down with my son 
set to see the crimson sunset 
(gather ye rosebuds while ye may) 
many years have come and gone 
i've lived my life, but now must move on 
(gather ye rosebuds while ye may) 
he's my only one 
now that my time has come 
now that my life is done 
we look into the sun 
'seize the day and don't you cry, 
now it's time to say good-bye 
even though i'll be gone, 
i will live on, live on.'