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tell me
remind me
chase the water racing from the sky
always beside me
taste the memories running from my eyes
nervous flashlights scan my dreams
liquid shadows silence their screams
i smile at the moon
chasing water from the sky
i argue with the clouds
stealing beauty from my eyes

outside the soundness of your mind
bathing your soul in silver tears
beneath a blackened summer sky
praying for time to disappear

beneath a summer sky
under glass moonlight
niht awaits the lamb's arrival
liquid shadow crawl
silver teardrops fall
the bride subsides to her survival

by your hand
i've awakened
bear this honor in my name
				

temptation -
why won't leave me alone ?
lurking every corner, everywhere i go
self control -
don't turn your back on me now
when i need you most
constant pressure tests my will
my will or my wont
my self control escapes from me still...
hypocrite -
how could you be so cruel
and expect my faith in return ?
resistance -
is not as hard as it seems
when you close the door
i spent so long trusting in you
i trust you forgot
just when i thought i believe in you...
it's time for me to deal
becoming all too real
living in fear -
why did you lie and pretend ?
this has come to an end
i'll never trust you again
it's time to make your amends
look in the mirror my friend
let's stare the problem right in the eye
it's plague me from coast to coast
racing the clock to please everyone
all but the ones who matters the most
reflections of reality
are slowly coming into view
how in the hell could you possibly forgive me ?
after all the hell i put you through
it's time for me to deal
becomin all too real
living in fear -
why'd i betray my friend ?
lying until the end
living life so pretend
it's time to make my amends
i'll never hurt you again
				

daybreak
at the bottom of lake
it's a hundred degree's i can't breeth
and i won't get out
'til i figure it out
thought i'm weak like i can't believe
so you tell me "trust me" i can't trust you
just let me show you
but i gotta work it out in a shadow of doubt
'cause i don't know if i know you
doing fine but i don't waste my time
tell me what it is you want to say
you sin, you win, just let me in - hurry
i've been out in the rain all day
so you tell me "trust me" i can't trust you
as far as i can throw you
and i'm trying to get out of a shadow of doubt
'cause i don't know if i know you
don't tell me you wanted me
don't tell me you thought of me
i won't, i sware i won't
(did)
i'll try, i sware i'll try
(lie)
mother mary quite contrary
kiss the boys and makes then wary
things are getting just a little bit scary
it's awonder i can still breathe
never been much of a doubting thomas
but nothing breaks like a broken promise
you tell me 'bout your two more coming
but once is just enough for me
i had gotten used to being a soul destroyed
she comes in apparently to fill the void
all dogs need a leash and at least i forgot it
and she would never hurt me though she's never said it
but i'm gonna ask her today
i din't wanna scare her away
your town, i'm all alone
and i just can't stare at the phone
i wanna talk about lifelong mistakes
and you can tell your stepfather i said so
				

he seems alone and silence
thoughts remain without an answer
afraid and uninvited
he slowly drift away
moved by desire and fear
breaking delicate wings
lifting shadows
off a dream once broken
she can turn a drop of water
into an ocean
as the rain is pouring down
tears of sorrow wash his mind
drifting with the current
this stream of life flows on
he seems alone and silent
waiting on his hands and knees
the chill's of winter's darken sits quietly
moved by desire and fear
he takes a few steps away
lifting shadows
off a dream once broken
she can turn a drop of water
into an ocean
and she listens openly
he pours his soul into the water
reflesting the mystery
she carries him away
and the winds die slowly
lifting shadows
off a dream once broken
she can turn a drop of water
into an ocean
lifting shaws off a dream
				

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animation
breathes a cloudless mind
fascination
leaves the doubting blind
until the circle breaks
and wisdom lies ahead
the faithdul live awake
the rest remains misted
some will transcend spinning years
one as if time disappears
innocence faded
the mirror falls behind you
trinty jaded
i'll break down walls to find you
callow and vain
fixed like a fossil, shrouding pain
passionless stage
distant like brothers
wearing apathetic displays
sharing flesh like envy in cages
condescending
not intending to end
some will transcend spinning years
one as if time disappears
innocence faded
the mirror falls behind you
trinty jaded
i break down walls to find you
beginings get complicated
the farther we progress
opinions are calculated
immune to openness
beyond the circle's edge
we'r driven by her blessings
forever hesitating
caught beneath the wheel
innocence faded
the mirror falls behind you
cynically jaded
the child will crawl to find you
				

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i remember a time
my frail, virgin mind
watched the crimson sunrise
imagined what it might find
life was filled with wonder
i felt the warm wind blow
i must explore the boundaries
transcend the depth of winter's snow
innocence caressing me
i never felt so young before
there was so much life in me
still i longed to search for more
but those days are gone now
changed like a leaf on a tree
blown away forever
into the cool autumn breeze
the snow has now fallen
and my sun's not so bright
i struggle to hold on
with the last of my might
in my den of inequity
viciousness and subtlety
struggle to ease the pain
struggle to find the sane
ignorance surrounding me
i've never been so filled with fear
all my life's been drained from me
the end is drawing near....
					

'carpe diem, seize the day'
i'll always remember
the chill of november
the news of the fall
the sounds in the hall
the clock on the wall ticking away
'seize the day'
i heard him say
life will not always be this way
look around
hear the sounds
cherish your life while you're still around

"gather ye rosebuds while ye may,        [sample is james waterston from   ]
old time is still a-flying;             [the film "dead poet's society".  ]
and this same flower that smiles today, [from the poem "to the virgins, to]
tomorrow will be dying."                [make much of time" by robert     ]
				    [herrick.                         ]  

we can learn from the past
but those days are gone
we can hope for the future
but there might not be one
the words stuck in my mind
alive from what i've learned
i have to seize the day
to home i returned
preparing for her flight
i held with all my might
fearing my deepest fright
she walked into the night
she turned for one last look
she looked me in the eye
i said, 'i love you...good-bye'

"it's the most awful thing you'll        [various samples mainly john      ]
ever hear."                             [voight from the film "table for  ]
"if you're lying to me..."               [five", some are from the film    ]
"oh, you dearly love her."               ["dead poet's society".           ]
"...just have to leave... all our lives."
"seize the day!"
"something happened."
"gather ye rosebuds while ye may."
"she was killed."
					

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so far or so it seems
all is lost with nothing fulfilled
off the pages and the t.v. screen
another world where nothing's true
tripping through the life fantastic
lose a step and never get up
left alone with a cold blank stare
i feel like giving up
i was blinded by a paradise
utopia high in the sky
a dream that only drowned me
deep in sorrow, wondering why
oh come let us adore him
abuse and then ignore him
no matter what, don't let him be
let's feed upon his misery
then string him up for all the world to see
i'm sick of all you hypocrites
holding me at bay
and i don't need your sympathy
to get me through the day
seasons change and so can i
hold on boy, no time to cry
untie these strings, i'm climbing down
i won't let them push me away
oh come let us adore him
abuse and then ignore him
no matter what, don't let him be
let's feed upon his misery
now it's time for them to deal with me
					

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i'm much wiser now
a lifetime of memories
run through my head
they taught me how
for better or worse, alive or dead
i realize there's no turning back
life goes on the offbeaten track
i sit down with my son
set to see the crimson sunset
(gather ye rosebuds while ye may)
many years have come and gone
i've lived my life, but now must move on
(gather ye rosebuds while ye may)
he's my only one
now that my time has come
now that my life is done
we look into the sun
'seize the day and don't you cry,
now it's time to say good-bye
even though i'll be gone,
i will live on, live on.'
					

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morning comes too early and nighttime falls too late
and sometimes all i want to do is wait
the shadow i've been hiding in has fled from me today

i know it's easier to walk away than to look in the eye
but i will raise a shelter to the sky
and here beneath this tar tonight i lie
she will slowly yield the light
as i awaken from the longest night

dreams are shaking
set sirens waking up tired eyes
with the light of the memories all rush into his head

by a candle stands a mirror
of his heart and soul she dances
she was dancing thru the night above his bed
and walking to the window
he throws the shutters out against the wall
and from an ivory tower hears her call
"let light surrounded you"

it's been a long, long time
he's had a while to think it over
in the end he only sees the change
light to dark
dark to light
light to dark
dark to light

heaven must be more than this
when angels waken a kiss
sacred hearts won't take the pain
but mine will never be the same

he stands before the window
his shadow slowly fading from the wall
and from an ivory tower hears her call
"let the light surrounded you"

once lost but i was found
when i heard the stained glas shatter all around me
i sent the spirits tumbling down the hill
but i will hold this one on high above me still
she whispers words to clear my mind
i once could see but now at last i'm blind

i know it's easier to walk away than look in the eye
but i had given all that i could take
and now i've only habits just to break
tonight i still be lying here
surrounded in all the light
				

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"love, just don't stare"
he used to say tome
every sunday morning
the spider in the window
the angel in the pool
the old man takes the poison
now the widow makes the rules
"so speak, i'm right here"
she used to say to me
no a word, not a word
judas on the ceiling
the devil in my bed
i guess easter's never coming
so i'll just wait inside my head
like a scream but sort of silence
living off my nightmares
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fear"
voices discussing me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined within your mind"
thought disorder
dream control
now they read my mind on the radio
but where was the garden of eden ?
i feel elated
i feel depressed
sex is death, death is sex
says it right hear on my crucifix
like a scream but sort of silent
living off my nightmares
voices protecting me
"good behavior brings the savior to his knees"
voices rejecting me
"others steal your thoughts they're not confined to your mind"
i'm kneeling on the floor
staring at the wall
like the spider in the window
i wish that i could speak
is there fantasy in refuge ?
god in politicians ?
should i turn on my religion ?
these demons in my head tell me to
i'm lying here in bed
swear my skin is inside out
just another sunday morning
seen my diary on the newstand
seems we've lost the truth to the quicksand
it's a shame no one is praying
'cause this voices in my head keep saying...
"love, just don't stare"
"reveal the word, when you're supposed to"
withdrawn and introverted
infectiouly perverted
"being laughed at and confused keeps us pleasantly amused enough to stay"
maybe i'm just cassandra fleeting
twentieth century icon bleeding
willing to risk salvation
to escape from isolation
i'm witness to redemption
heard you speak but never listened
can you rid me of my secrets ?
deliver us from darkness ?
voices repeating me
"feeling threatened ? we reflect your hopes and fears"
voices discussing me
don't expect your own messiah
this neverworld which you desire
in only in your mind
				

a question well served
"is silence like a fever ?"
"a voice never heard ?"
"or a message with no receiver ?"
pray they won't ask
behind the stained glass
there's always one more mask
has man been a victim 
of his woman, of his father ?
if he elects not to bother,
will he suffocate their faith ?
desperate to fall
behind the great wall
that separates us all
when there is reason
tonight i'm awake
when there's no answer
arrive the silent man
if there is balance
tonight he's awake
if they have to suffer
there lies the silent man
				

lost in the shy
clouds roll by and i roll with them
arrows fly
seas increase and then fall again

this world is spinning around me
this world is spinning without me
every day sends future to past
every breath leaves me one less to my last

watch the sparrow falling
gives new meaning to it all
if not today nor yet tomorrow then some other day

i'll take seven lives for on
and then my only father's son
as sure as i did ever love him
i am not afraid

this world is spinning around me
the whole world keeps spinning around me
all life is future to past
every breath leaves me one less to my last

pull me under pull me under
pull me under i'm not afraid
all that i feel is honor and spite
all i can do is set it right

dust fills my eyes
clouds roll by and i roll with them
centuries cry
orders fly and i fall again

this world is spinning inside me
the whole world is spinning inside of me
every day sends future to past
every step brings me closer to my last

pull me under pull me under
pull me under i'm not afraid
living my life too much in the sun
only until your will is done
				

can you remember remember my name
as i flow through your life
a thousand oceans i have flown
and cold spirits of ice
all my life
i am the echo of your past

i am returning the echo of a point in time
distant faces shine
a thousand warriors i have known
and laughing as the spirits appear
all your life
shadows of another day

and if you hear me talking on the wind
you've got to understand
we must remain
perfect strangers

i know i must remain inside this silent well of sorrow

a strand of silver hanging through the sky
touching more than you see
the voice of ages in your mind
is aching with the dead of the night
precious life (your tears are lost in falling rain)

and if you hear me talking on the wind
you've got to understand
we must remain
perfect strangers
				

standing by the window
eyes upon the moon
hoping that the memory leave her spirit soon
she shuts the doors and lights
and lays her body on the bed
where images and words are running deep
she has too much pride to pull the sheets above her head
so quietly she lays and waits for sleep

she stairs at the ceiling
and tries not to think
and pictures the chain
she's been trying to link again
but the feeling is gone

and water can't cover her memory
and ashes can't answer her pain
god give me the power to take a breath from a breeze
and call life from a cold metal frame

in with the ashes
or up with the smoke from the fire
with wings up in heaven
or here, lying in bed
palm of her hand to my head
now and forever curled in my heart
and the heart of the world
				

there was no time for pain
no energy for anger
the sightlessness of hatred sleeps away
walking winter streets alone
he stops and takes a breath
with confidence and self-control

i look at the world and see no understanding
i'm waiting to find some sense of strength
i'm begging from the bottom of my heart to show me understanding

i need to live life
like some people never will
so find me kindness
find me beauty
find me truth
when temptation brings me to my knees
and i lay here drained of strength
show me kindness
show me beauty
show me truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the difference
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beat makes all the difference
in learning to live
here before me is my soul
i'm learning to live
i won't give up
till i've no more to give

listening to the city
whispering its violence
i set out watching from above
the 90s bring new questions
new solutions to be found
i fell in love to be let down

once again we dance in the crowd
at times a step away
from a common fear that's all spread out
it won't listen to what you say
once you're touched you stand alone
to face the bitter fight
once i reached for love
and now i reach for life

another chance to lift my life
free the sensation in my heart
to ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
it brings inner peace within my mind,
as i'm lifted from where i've spilt my mind
i hear an innocent voice
i hear kindness, beauty and truth

the way your heart sounds makes all the diffrence
it's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
the way your heart beats makes all the difference
in learning to live
spread before you is your soul
so forever hold the dreams within our hearts
through nature inflexible grace
i'm learning to live