[6:00 PM                                                               ]
[                                                                      ]
[Our friend Nikki, charged with several counts of murder               ]
[involving members of this city's political and religious leaders,     ]
[has been committed to State Hospital under heavy security.            ]
[PA: Dr. Davis, telephone please, Dr. Davis, telephone please.         ]
[Dr. Blair, Dr. Blair, Dr. J. Hamilton, Dr. J. Hamilton.               ]
[                                                                      ]
[TV: ...the Soviets...  In other news the bizarre murders of           ]
[political and religious leaders that have shocked this                ]
[city over the last month seemed to have ended as                      ]
[suddenly as they began.  No terrorist groups ...                      ]
[responsibility for the slayings, but police have a                    ]
[suspect in custody under observation in a state hospital.             ]
[His identity is being withheld pending further                        ]
[investigation.  Sports and weather next...                            ]
[London-born nurse, Debbie, seems determined to administer             ]
[the tranquilizer and give us her personal feelings regarding her      ]
[patient.  Hmm?                                                        ]
[Debbie: It's ten minutes past curfew, why are you still up?           ]
[Hello?  Hello?                                                        ]
[Perhaps you need another shot.                                        ]
[Ah, that should do it.                                                ]
[Sweet dreams... you bastard.                                          ]
[Injection completed, Nikki listens to his favorite tape               ]
[and retraces his past.                                                ]
[Nikki: I remember now.                                                ]
[I remember how it started.                                            ]
[I can't remember yesterday.                                           ]
[I just remember doing what they told me... told me...                 ]
[told me... told me.                                                   ]
				

Weeks ago in Occidental Park, hundreds of people gathered  
for a political rally.  There was a man shouting above all the  
others.  The man's name?  "Dr. X." 
Dr X: Do we have freedom?  
Do we have equality? 
This country's changing!  
It is no longer for all of the people!  
It is for some of the people! 
				

For a price I'd do about anything 
 Except pull the trigger 
 For that I'd need a pretty good cause 
 Then I heard of Dr. X 
 The man with the cure 
 Just watch the television 
 Yeah, you'll see there's something going on 
 Got no love for politicians 
 Or that crazy scene in D.C. 
 It's just a power mad town 
 But the time is ripe for changes 
 There's a growing feeling 
 That taking a chance on a new kind of vision is due 
 I used to trust the media 
 To tell me the truth, tell us the truth 
 But now I've seen the payoffs 
 Everywhere I look 
 Who do you trust when everyone's a crook? 
 Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling you 
 There's a Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling 
 Gotta make a change 
 Gotta push, gotta push it on through 
 I'm tired of all this bullshit 
 They keep selling me on T.V. 
 About the communist plan 
 And all the shady preachers 
 Begging for my cash 
 Swiss bank accounts while giving their 
 Secretaries the slam 
 They're all in Penthouse now 
 Or Playboy magazine, million dollar stories to tell 
 I guess Warhol wasn't wrong 
 Fame fifteen minutes long 
 Everyone's using everybody, making the sale 
 I used to think 
 That only America's way, way was right 
 But now the holy dollar rules everybody's lives 
 Gotta make a million doesn't matter who dies 
 Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling you 
 There's a Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling 
 Gotta make a change 
 Gotta push, gotta push it on through 
 I used to trust the media 
 To tell me the truth, tell us the truth 
 But now I've seen the payoffs 
 Everywhere I look 
 Who do you trust when everyone's a crook? 
 Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling you 
 There's a Revolution calling 
 Revolution calling 
 Gotta make a change 
 Gotta push, gotta push it on through 
 *Ring* 
 *Ring* 
 Nikki: Hello? 
 Dr. X: Mindcrime. 
 *Click* 
[  The phone hasn't stopped ringing since the hypnotic              ]
[ meeting with Dr. X.  His plan is brilliant in its simplicity:     ]
[ assassination and replacement.  He calls it, "Operation:          ]
[ mindcrime," and Nikki is the key player.                          ]
[  Nikki has a weakness.  He likes the needle.  Dr. X makes         ]
[ sure Nikki feels good so he can do a good job.  The chosen "Death ]
[ Angel" is then easily manipulated through subliminal suggestion   ]
[ over the telephone.  The password into Nikki's brain is           ]
 "mindcrime." 
 *Ring* 
 Nikki: Hello?
				

It just takes a minute 
 And you'll feel no pain 
 Gotta make something of your life boy 
 Give me one more vein 
 You've come to see the doctor 
 Cause I'll show you the cure 
 I'm gonna take away the questions 
 Yeah I'm gonna make you sure 
 A hit man for the order 
 When you couldn't go to school 
 Had a skin job for a hair-do 
 Yeah you looked pretty cool 
 Had a habit doing mainline 
 Watch the dragon burn 
 No regrets, you've got no goals 
 Nothing more to learn 
 Now I know you won't refuse 
 Because we've got so much to do 
 And you've got nothing more to lose 
 So take this number and welcome to 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 We're an underground revolution 
 Working overtime 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 There's a job for you in 
 The system boy, with nothing to sign 
 Hey Nikki you know everything 
 That there is to do 
 Here's a gun take it home 
 Wait by the phone 
 We'll send someone over 
 To bring you what you need 
 You're a one man death machine 
 Make this city bleed 
 Now I know you won't refuse 
 Because we've got so much to do 
 And you've got nothing more to lose 
 So take this number and welcome to 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 We're an underground revolution 
 Working overtime 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 There's a job for you in 
 The system boy, with nothing to sign 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 We're an underground revolution 
 Working overtime 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 If you come to see the doctor 
 Yeah he'll give you the cure 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 Make something of your life boy 
 Let me into your mind 
 Operation : Mindcrime 
 There's a job for you in the system boy 
 With nothing to sign 
 Nikki: "Hey, hey, listen to me!"  
[  Nikki was a loser.  A street kid, left to fend for              ]
[ himself at a young age.  He was independent, and unpredictable,  ]
[ but harmless.  Except now he had a philosophy, and that made him ]
[ dangerous.                                                       ]
[  "Revolution!" was the word on his lips as he stood in the       ]
[ streets and screamed, "Hey, listen to me!"                       ]
				

They've given me a mission 
 I don't really know the game yet 
 I'm bent on submission 
 Religion is to blame 
 I'm the new messiah 
 Death Angel with a gun 
 Dangerous in my silence 
 Deadly to my cause 
 Speak to me the pain you feel 
 Speak the word [Revolution!] 
 The word is all of us 
 I've given my life to become what I am 
 To preach the new beginning 
 To make you understand 
 To reach some point of order 
 Utopia in mind, you've got to learn 
 To sacrifice, to leave what's now behind 
 Speak to me the pain you feel 
 Speak the word  
 The word is all of us 
 Speak the word 
 The word is all of us 
 Seven years of power 
 The corporation claw 
 The rich control the government, the media the law 
 To make some kind of difference 
 Then everyone must know 
 Eradicate the fascists, revolution will grow 
 The system we learn says we're equal under law 
 But the streets are reality, the weak and poor will fall 
 Let's tip the power balance and tear down their crown 
 Educate the masses, we'll burn the White House down 
 Speak to me the pain you feel 
 Speak to me the pain you feel 
 Speak the word [Revolution!] 
 The word is all of us 
 Speak the word [Revolution!] 
 The word is all of us 
 Speak the word 
 The word is all of us 
 Speak the word 
 The word is all of us 
 [Speak!] 
[  Mary worked the S M shows in Times Square.  At seventeen        ]
[ she met Father William, who arranged her cloister with "Our Lady ]
[ of Immaculate Pain."  A new life.  A different way of living.    ]
[ Except for her debt with him, which was expected to be paid in   ]
[ full, weekly, "...on the altar.  Like a sacrifice."              ]
[  When she was eighteen, Father William introduced her to a       ]
[ man named Dr. X.  Now she works for him.                         ]
				

She always brings me what I need 
 Without I beg and sweat and bleed 
 When we're alone at night 
 Waiting for the call 
 She feeds my skin 
 Sixteen and on the run from home 
 Found a job in Times Square 
 Working Live S M shows 
 Twenty-five bucks a fuck 
 And John's a happy man 
 She wipes the filth away 
 And it's back on the streets again 
 Spreading the disease 
 Everybody needs 
 But no one wants to see 
 Father William saved her from the streets 
 She drank the lifeblood from the saviour's feet 
 She's Sister Mary now, eyes as cold as ice 
 He takes her once a week 
 On the alter like a sacrifice 
 Spreading the disease 
 Everybody needs 
 But no one wants to see 
 Spoken: Religion and sex are powerplays 
  Manipulate the people for the money they pay 
  Selling skin, selling God 
  The numbers look the same on their credit cards 
  Politicians say no to drugs 
  While we pay for wars in South America 
  Fighting fire with empty words 
  While the banks get fat 
  And the poor stay poor 
  And the rich get rich 
  And the cops get paid 
  To look away 
  As the one percent rules America 
 Spreading the disease 
 Everybody needs 
 But no one wants to see 
 The way society 
 Keeps spreading the disease 
 [Sex] 
 [Sex] 
 [Sex] 
 [Sex] 
 [Sex] 
[  Nikki spends quite a lot of time these days in his room;         ]
[ drawing gruesome, detailed depictions of his victims' deaths      ]
[ upon the dingy white walls.  Drowning in guilt, he sees Sister    ]
[ Mary as his only means to salvation.  He lights another candle    ]
[ and flips through the TV channels one by one.  The familiar face  ]
[ of Father William appears.                                        ]
[ TV: ...informing Washington, a technical violation of the         ]
[  1972 AMB Treaty...                                               ]
[ Father: ...I'm asking for hands to be uplifted in just a moment.  ]
[  God the Holy Ghost is calling out to embrace you.  I want        ]
[  you to reach deep into your hearts and your pocketbooks          ]
[  and take his hand.  Some of you are in a state of                ]
[  rebellion right now.  You're saying...                           ]
[ Nikki: Bless me father, for I have sinned.                        ]
[  Is it wrong?  Is it right?  ...Ring! ...Ring!                    ]
[ "mindcrime!!" Decision made.                                      ]
				

 In the wooden chair 
 Beside my pillow 
 I wear a face born in the falling rain 
 I talk to shadows from a lonely candle 
 Recite the phrases from the wall 
 I can't explain this holy pain 
 Six days ago my life had taken a tumble 
 The orders came from high above they say 
 A need to use me once again they've got my number 
 Further the cause boy yes you know the game 
 I'll wait here for days longer 
 Till the sister comes to wash my sins away 
 She is the lady that can ease my sorrow 
 She brings the only friend 
 That helps me find my way 
 I search the past back to a time 
 When I was younger 
 A target for the new society 
 Picked to displace the leaders 
 Countering objectives 
 Of this new underground reality 
 Waiting for days longer 
 Till sister comes to wash my sins away 
 She is the lady who can ease my sorrow 
 My love for her 
 Will help me find my way 
 They'll say my mission saved the world 
 And I stood proud 
 My mission changed the world 
 It turned my life around 
 I look around my room is filled with candles 
 Each one a story but they end the same 
 I'll hide away in here the law will never find me 
 The walls will tell the story of my pain 
 Waiting for days longer 
 Till sister comes to wash my sins away 
 She is the lady who can ease my sorrow 
 She sets the pace for my delivery of pain 
 They'll say my mission saved the world 
 And I stood proud 
 My mission changed the world 
 The underground will rise and 
 Save this world we'll all stand proud 
 Our mission changed the world, we'll change the world 
 We'll all stand proud 
[  A long, satin black sedan slides to a stop in front of          ]
[ Nikki.  The rain, beading on the dark, tinted windows, distorts  ]
[ his reflection.  Bemused by his melting facial features, he's    ]
[ startled as the electric window descends revealing the smiling   ]
[ face of Dr. X.                                                   ]
 Dr. X: Kill her.  That's all you have to do. 
 Nikki: Kill Mary? 
 Dr. X: She's a risk, and get the priest as well. 
				

10 P.M., I feel the rain coming down 
 My face feels the wet, my mind the storm 
 Flashing lights as people race to find shelter from the pour 
 Moving silent, through the streets, they're mine, they're mine 
 Midnite, she sings praises in the Hall 
 To saintly faces hallowed be their names she can't recall 
 Sister Mary, virgin Mary, silent with her sin 
 Mary: What are you doing out in the rain? 
 She feels me, I can taste her breath when she speaks 
 Mary: I've been waiting for you.  Come in. 
 Mary, Mary just a whore for the underground 
 They made you pay in guilt for your salvation 
 Thought you had them fooled? Now they've sent me for you 
 You know too much for your own good 
 Don't offer me faith, I've got all I need here 
 My faith is growing, growing tight against the seam 
 What we need is trust, to keep us both alive 
 Help us make it through the night 
        Mary: I've no more want of any faith 
         Binds my arm and feed my mind 
         The only peace I've ever known 
         I'll close my eyes and you shoot 
 No Mary, listen, you've got to pull your strength from my lips 
 I pray I feed you well 
 Your precious cross is gone, it made me wait so long 
 For what you gave to everyone 
 The priest is cold and dead on his knees he fed 
 From my barrel of death, he turned the Holy water red 
 As he died he said thank you 
 I just watched him bleed 
        Mary: I feel the flow, the blessed stain 
         Sweating hands like fire, and flames 
         Burn my thighs, spread in sacrificial rite 
         The hallowed altar burns my flesh once more tonight 
 Mary, sweet lady of pain 
 Always alone 
 Blind you search for the truth 
 I see myself in you, parallel lives 
 Winding at light-speed through time 
 No time to rest yet 
 We've got to stop his game 
 Before madness has the final laugh 
 Too much bloodshed 
 We're being used and fed 
 Like rats in experiments 
 No final outcome here 
 Only pain and fear 
 It's followed us both all our lives 
 There's one thing left to see 
 Will it be him or me? 
 There's one more candle left to light 
        Mary: Don't turn your back on my disgrace 
         The blood of Christ can't heal my wounds... so deep 
         The sins of man are all I taste 
         Can't spit the memory from my mind 
         I can't cry anymore 
 Mary, my lady of pain, always alone 
 Blind you search for the truth 
 I see myself in you, parallel lives 
 Winding at light-speed through time, you're mine 
[  Father William lay crumpled on the stairs leading to the          ]
[ sanctuary.                                                         ]
[  Mary watches in disgust as her lover Nikki's troubled             ]
[ face dissolves into the leering, drooling face of the priest       ]
[ huffing and puffing above her.                                     ]
[  "Altar... sacrifice..." something snaps inside her head.          ]
[ Nikki feels the coldness overtake her.  He pulls away, vowing to   ]
[ kill Dr. X and set them both free of their master's                ]
[ manipulations.                                                     ]
[  Pulling closed the huge door behind him, he stumbles into         ]
[ the rainy night to keep his appointment with his "maker."          ]
 Nikki: I've had enough and I want out!  
 Dr. X: You can't walk away now.  Hahahahahaha...
				

 I looked back once 
 And all I saw was his face 
 Smiling, the needle crying 
 Walking out of his room 
 With mirrors, afraid I heard him scream 
 You'll never get away 
 Cold and shaking 
 I crawled down alleys to try 
 And scrape away the tracks that marked me 
 Slammed my face into walls of concrete 
 I stared, amazed at the words written on the wall 
 Don't ever trust 
 Don't ever trust the needle, it lies 
 Don't ever trust 
 Don't ever trust the needle when it cries, cries your name 
 Wet and raving 
 The needle keeps calling me back 
 To bloody my hands forever 
 Carved my cure with the blade 
 That left me in scars 
 Now every time I'm weak 
 Words scream from my arm 
 Don't ever trust 
 Don't ever trust the needle, it lies 
 Don't ever trust 
 Don't ever trust the needle when it cries, cries your name 
 Don't ever trust 
 Don't ever trust the needle, it lies 
 Don't ever trust 
 Don't ever trust the needle when it cries, cries your name 
[  After Nikki leaves, Mary is plagued by the vision of            ]
[ Nikki turning into Father William.  As they made love on the     ]
[ altar, the memories came flooding back.  Years filled with men   ]
[ who had used her, degraded and beaten her, and driven their      ]
[ hatred and coldness into her heart.  Once, she thought Nikki was ]
[ her hope.  But now he seemed like all the rest.                  ]
[  She hated him.  She hated men.  She hated life.                 ]
[  Unable to shake his addiction, and feeling beaten in his        ]
[ confrontation with Dr. X, Nikki returns.                         ]
 Nikki: Anybody home? 
  Mary? 
[  He finds her dead in her room.                                  ]
				

Even in death 
 You still look sad 
 Don't leave me 
 Don't leave me... here 
 I want what you feel, believe me 
 Turn the current on 
[  Unable to accept Mary's death, Nikki runs like a raving           ]
[ madman through the streets calling her name.  Everywhere he looks  ]
[ he sees her face.                                                  ]
				

They told me to run 
 But just how far 
 Can I go wearing the black mask of fear? 
 The hate in my eyes always gives me away 
 The tension building slowly 
 Now I lost everything I had in you 
 Nothing we shared means a thing 
 Without you close to me 
 I can't live without you 
 Breaking the silence of the night 
 Can't you hear me screaming? 
 I look for your face in the neon light 
 You never answer me 
 There's no direction to my stare 
 No more flame burning in my heart anymore 
 Quiet, I keep it to myself 
 Until the sun sets slowly 
 I hear your voice in the evening rain calling 
 Nothing will keep us apart 
 No more lies and fear 
 There's no end to our story 
 Breaking the silence of the night 
 Can't you hear me screaming? 
 I look for your face in the neon light 
 You never answer 
 I could make all the wrong seem right 
 If you were by my side 
 I'd gather all the tears you cried 
 And hide them deep underground 
 Can't look back, it's just a waste of time 
 Can't erase this hate from my eyes 
 Breaking the silence of the night 
 Through the streets I'm screaming 
 Looking for you in the neon light 
 Why don't you answer me? 
 Breaking the silence with my cries 
 Can't you hear me screaming? 
 We could make all this wrong seem right 
 But you never answer me 
 Voices: We know you did it.  Why'd you do it?  Why'd you do it? 
 Nikki: No, no, no! 
[  The police arrest Nikki.  The charges are: disorderly             ]
[ conduct, carrying a concealed weapon without a license, and        ]
[ resisting arrest.  They know he's a junkie because of the tracks   ]
[ on his arms.  His weapon also matches the one used in a string of  ]
[ recent killings.  Nikki isn't making much sense now, babbling on   ]
[ about perverted priests, some kind of covert operation, and not    ]
[ believing in love.                                                 ]
				

I awoke on impact 
 Under surveillance from the camera eye 
 Searching high and low 
 The criminal mind found at the scene of the crime 
 Handcuffed and blind, I didn't do it 
 She said she loved me 
 I guess I never knew 
 But do we ever, ever really know? 
 She said she'd meet me on the other side 
 But I knew right then, I'd never find her 
 I don't believe in love 
 I never have, I never will 
 I don't believe in love 
 It's never worth the pain that you feel 
 No more nightmares, I've seen them all 
 From the day I was born, they've haunted my every move 
 Every open hand's there to push and shove 
 No time for love it doesn't matter 
 She made a difference 
 I guess she had a way 
 Of making every night seem bright as day 
 Now I walk in shadows, never see the light 
 She must have lied 'cause she never said goodbye 
 I don't believe in love 
 I never have, I never will 
 I don't believe in love 
 I'll just pretend she never was real 
 I don't believe in love 
 I need to forget her face, I see it still 
 I don't believe in love 
 It's never worth the pain that you feel 
 No chance for contact 
 There's no raison d'etre 
 My only hope is one day I'll forget 
 The pain of knowing what can never be 
 With or without love it's all the same to me 
 I don't believe in love 
 I never have, I never will 
 I don't believe in love 
 I'll just pretend she never was real 
 I don't believe in love 
 I need to forget her face, I see it still 
 I don't believe in love 
 It's never worth the pain that you feel 
				

[Instrumental]

[Left alone, Nikki thinks of Mary; of the night she died,           ]
[ and why.  He wonders about his future.  Who will be there to care ]
[ for him and be his friend?                                        ]
				

Empty room today 
 And here I sit 
 Chalk outline upon the wall 
 I remember tracing it 
 A thousand times, the night she died.  Why?  Why? 
 There's no sleep today, I can't pretend 
 When all my dreams are crimes 
 I can't stand facing them 
 Now who will come 
 To wash away my sins 
 Clean my room, fix my meals 
 Be my friend? 
[  Charged with several murders, Nikki is committed to State        ]
[ Hospital to overcome his addiction.  Awaiting trial, he suffers   ]
[ insomnia and is delirious.                                        ]
[  Searching through his past, he tries to find reasons for         ]
[ his actions and his weaknesses.  Staring into the mirror, he sees ]
[ a stranger.                                                       ]
				

PA: Dr. Davis, telephone please.  Dr. Davis 
        Dr. Blair, Dr. Blair, Dr. J. Hamilton, Dr. J Hamilton 
 All alone now 
 Except for the memories 
 Of what we had and what we knew 
 Every time I try to leave it behind me 
 I see something that reminds me of you 
 Every night the dreams return to haunt me 
 Your rosary wrapped around your throat 
 I lie awake and sweat, afraid to fall asleep 
 I see your face looking back at me 
 Looking back at me 
 And I raise my head and stare 
 Into the eyes of a stranger 
 I've always known that the mirror never lies 
 People always turn away 
 From the eyes of a stranger 
 Afraid to know what 
 Lies behind the stare 
 Is this all that's left 
 Of my life before me 
 Straight jacket memories, sedative highs 
 No happy ending like they've always promised 
 There's got to be something left for me 
 And I raise my head and stare 
 Into the eyes of a stranger 
 I've always known that the mirror never lies 
 People always turn away 
 From the eyes of a stranger 
 Afraid to know what 
 Lies behind the stare  
 [Lies behind my stare] 
 How many times must I live this tragedy 
 How many more lies will they tell me 
 All I want is the same as everyone 
 Why am I here, and for how long 
 And I raise my head and stare 
 Into the eyes of a stranger 
 I've always known that the mirror never lies 
 People always turn away 
 From the eyes of a stranger 
 Afraid to know what 
 Lies behind the stare 
 [Mindcrime...] 
 [And welcome...] 
 [Speak!] 
 [REVOLUTION!] 
 6:01 PM 
 Nikki: I remember now. 
				

[Instrumental]
				

"Hooray for you convict, you're a free man!"
				

I gotta have it,
gotta drink the high life.
I’ll buy a new suit, black skinny necktie.
I’ll mingle with elite and imitate
and they’ll never even get it ’til I hit ’em.

I’ve got no fear ’cause I’ve weathered the breakdown,
San Quentin to the edge of the Big Town.
I’m a man of the people,
in the home of the brave, and I’m no man’s slave.

Because I’m free,
I deserve everything I can get.
I’m American.
I’m American.

If you voted for the man you’re wasting time.
He’s got his fingers dipped in everyone’s pie.
The news can’t wait to promote
all the bullshit this government is selling.

I’ve got this plan in motion, countdown.
Assassinate, terminate, smack down.
There’s a war in my head and it needs to be said.
If they think they can take me they’re dead.

Because I’m free,
I deserve everything I can get.
And I’ll get everything I can get.
I’m American.
I’m American.

What do you believe in?
What are you living for?
Do you want what they’re selling you,
another television war?

I can’t stop! I feel I gotta have more!
That’s right, more!
I want more!
More!

Because I’m free,
I deserve everything I can get.
I’m American.
I’m American.

Because I’m free,
And I’ll get everything I can get.
I’m American.
I’m American.

Are you free?
You deserve everything you can get.
I’m American.
I’m American.

Yeah I’m free,
I deserve everything I can get.
I’m American.
I’m American.
				

Back streets . . . oh hell,
back where I started from
there’s not a thing . . . but you.
When they took you, when they took you from me and left you bleeding on that concrete floor.
One man’s obsession is another man’s trash,
and Mary was more than a whore.

And every day I breathe I remember more.
I’ve become something you wouldn’t believe!

I’ve got this number burned in my brain,
a walking nightmare, only slightly insane.
They tried to take my fight, almost took my life.
They took my truth from me.
But when they left me, they didn’t know me, ’cause I’m like a lion that’s about to roar.
Mistakes you make, you take to your grave.
And now I’m gonna even the score.

And every day I live I remember more.
I ain’t got nothing to sell,
but it’s time to pay attention,

I’m back with one foot in hell.
I’m back.

There’s nothing left but memories here
of something that I didn’t begin with.
You wanted to believe in something
until the end.

Yeah I’m like a ghost back from the dead.
I need revenge. Gonna have his head.
I’m gonna finish this and X marks the spot.
I’m gonna find him give him all that I got.

And every day I breathe I remember more.
I ain’t coming at you with something to sell,
but you better believe,

I’m back with one foot in hell.
I’m back.
				

Culture hostage.
I’m writhing in the cold grasp of justice,
as she turns away.
Blind is she supposed to be but,
someone took a razor to her mask.

Rusted now the scales you hold,
the balance tipped by the weight of gold.
When will it end?
When will it ever end?

The judgment man holds my fate,
as I beg forgiveness with the
plastic smile of a candidate.

They take for granted that I’m out of my mind and they’re wasting their time to care.
So all my reasons are damned before they’re heard.
I’m held hostage by their words.
What will lead us to tolerance
if we don’t question our prejudice?

Courage is such a lonely word,
patience, in time these truths will be known.
Please, don’t keep looking away.
You see fortunes are on line, reputations at risk, and there’s fear in the hearts of all of you that believe that you’re right,
and that’s your right.
But are you . . . right?

The judgment man holds my fate,
as I gaze around the room,
their eyes are like knives, could decapitate.
They take for granted that I’m out of my mind and I’m wasting their time, don’t show, don’t show me my fate.

Reasons are damned, can’t understand.
If I fall to pieces they’ll know . . .
he’s out of his mind and he’s wasting our time, we know. As I sense my fate . . .
His reasons be damned, can’t understand him.
. . . and now all my reasons are damned before they’re heard. I’m held hostage by their words.
I’m a hostage.
				

When I’m lost . . . I find a way.
I hear voices. I feel them surround me,
pull me from the edge.
I close my eyes and . . . .

my luck keeps holding strong,
even when the boot comes down.
Waiting for the revolution but there’s no one around except the . . . hands out of nowhere, saving me again.
There’s always something there watching out for me,
if I’m suffocating, it gives me air.

Finally now I remember,
but where I’m going now, I’m not sure.
Only one thing matters much to me anymore.

I’m looking for you.
Can you imagine? You can’t think.
You won’t find a way this time to frighten me.
You’re running scared, now, always looking
over your shoulder for a place where
you don’t see my face.

But my luck keeps holding so strong,
even with the state I’m in.
I’m like a revolution of one, even when I stumble I win.

Because there’s hands out of nowhere, saving me again.
There’s always something there, watching out for me.
When I’m suffocating, it gives me air.

I’m like a cat with only a few lives left
and I’m crawling through the shadows.
Watching my back waiting for the attack that I know is
coming . . . I feel it’s near.
				

Wonder where’d the time go?
There it was, gone in the blink of an eye.
See how much life is left
staring back in my face?
But I know it now as clear as,
clear as a window.

Never thought this day would come,
I never thought I’d see.
half my life is gone.
Thought I’d never live to see . . .
Never thought this day would come . . .
I never thought I’d see half my life is gone
Thought I’d never live to be . . . much of anything.

Everything moves faster now.
We’re living at the speed of light.
I stand here fascinated,
watching as it all goes by.
Maybe I should live what’s left . . . like it was my last.

Never thought this day would come . . .
I never thought I’d see half my life is gone.
I’d never live to see . . .
Never thought this day would come . . .
I never thought I’d see half my life is gone
I’d never live to be . . . much of anything.
Everything moves faster now.

Where are you now?
Feeling small.
Can’t live without it?
You call this your best?
I made my life a mess.
And everyone but you sees it.
What a fool.
What are you gonna do,
make more excuses?
“Don’t worry,
I’ll kill the bastard!”
				

Imagine if you will, what it means . . .
this worthless life.
Tried my best to the scratch the surface
got bloody broken fingernails.

Convincing stories of achievement, lies.
All expectations smashed,
never could comply.
Generations come and go.
And what will I be,
the failure they see here?

Now, I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
I’ll never surrender!
Time for heads to roll!


Do you think I’ve got to have
one good reason?
The question stands,
how does he keep getting into my head?

I know I’ll never see.
I’ve got to get free.
No matter what’s said,
I’d rather see him dead!

You might be wondering why . . .
I can’t take any more?
I can’t take any more.
I’ll tear him down! I’m gonna tear him down!

I’ve been called so many things
Now what do you see?
A failure dares to dream?

Now, I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
I’ll never surrender!
I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can’t remember!
All the signs say … go!

Convince me, mesmerize me
Feed me more lies.
I’ll get stronger!
How do you get him out, out of your head?
I know I’ll never see.
I’ve got to get free.
No matter what’s said,
I swear I’ll see him dead!

I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
I’ll never surrender!
It’s time for heads to roll!

I can’t remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can’t remember!
All the signs say … go!
				

Last time, missed my chance but never again.
The further away you slip, the more I’ll dig in.
All things come around again
and this time I’ll be ready and waiting.
You can’t imagine dedication
that I now possess.

There’s no one left to save you.
Where you run I will follow.
I’ll step by step re-arrange you.
There’s nowhere to hide.

You’ll never see me coming but
you’ll feel the fear from my shadow.
With intensity, yeah, you’ll bleed.
Before it’s over you’ll age ten years older.
Time flows like a river . . . deep.
I’m going to take you down.

There’s no one left to save you.
Where you run I will follow.
I’ll step by step re-arrange you.
There’s nowhere to hide.

They say let the world change you
and you can change the world.
They’ll bit by bit re-arrange you.
I can’t change the world.

It’s taken me years to get to this place.
I found you hiding inside a persona
you built from my pain.
Fortune has finally come and
vengeance is mine I’ve won.
I’ll take the world now by storm.

Do I let the world change me?
Do I lead or follow?
They’ll step by step re-arrange me.
Let them all try!

If I let the world change me,
step by step re-arrange me.
If I focus on tomorrow,
maybe I could change the world!
				

You think you’re smart, inventive
because you’ve figured out my game?
Pride is a handy substitute,
when you’ve got only yourself to blame.
All my dreams I’ve realized while you . . . were indisposed.
While you’ve spent eighteen years watching TV,
I’ve watched my fortune grow.

Here I am—I’m finally on the outside and
You’re nowhere near where I’ve been!
I’ve got you where I want you . . . at last.
You’ve got no idea who I am!
We circle around each other waiting for reaction
We circle around each other waiting for reaction
wanting satisfaction for the past.
I want nothing . . . from the past.

Always been so easy you’re like a puppet on my string,
throwing down hollow threats, unsure of what to think.
Why should I care?
You wouldn’t dare!
You’re nothing but worthless . . . I swear.

From where I stand I’ve got you where I want you.
You’ll never take me! Never take me down!
I’ve seen all I need to put you in the ground
Revenge is normal, a typical reaction
I’ve seen your cynical reaction . . .
if you’re standing outside of in.
always on the outside of in.

Here we are at last facing oblivion . . .
And this is where finally it ends.
You don’t belong here.
holding fast to each of our sins.
With hope by my side, I’ll survive to see the dawn.
Believe me or not . . . you owe me.
I owe you nothing!
I gave your life a purpose!
I owe you nothing but your death!
Without me you would have learned nothing!
				

Lost my faith in humanity
and I don’t trust in society
I’m numb, cold, ready.

No one else dies today . . .

What did you do?
I don’t remember . . .
Murderer!
They say I’m a murderer!

God must be dead because I’m still free.
No religion holds me . . . am I the killer?

No one else dies today . . .

What did you do?
I’m the revenger,
Murderer!
No! I’m the revenger!
Murderer!
No I’m the . . . black hand of death!

Sixty-five hundred days . . .
I’m feeling good for the first time in years.
Your miserable life is in my hands.
What would you do?

Kill him!

Does this signal an ending or another dream just beginning? Are his actions worth forgiving?
No more pain! Revenge!

Haven’t you enough?
The dog is on his knees!

Does this signal an ending or another dream just beginning?
Is revenge worth any price?
Tell me what’s right?

He wants more life!

NO!
You want more life?
NO!
Is this my victory?
Murderer!
Am I?

Stay down on your knees
and explain it to me one more time.
What gives you the right?
You took away my life . . . !
and left me with nothing, nothing.

This is like what I dreamed . . .
it seems like a good day to die.

And so it ends. And now what?
				

I walk around in circles, up all night.
I wish there was something in my life that turned out right.
I’m waiting here for reasons that used to be clear.
What I thought I needed so bad was always here . . .
				

She said, “Baby, where you been?
Why’d you have to leave me?
I’m on the other side . . . just looking in.”
I’ve been so high; I climbed to the mountaintop,
looked at myself and . . .

I’d tell you anything you want to hear.
And I’d desert you when I’m through.
I’d say anything because true love
don’t mean a thing to a man, who’s not a man, but a fool.

Look at me!
You’re a model of efficiency.
I’m always doing what he tells me.
How can you change it now?

I’m always looking for it down deep inside,
I thought that this would change my life.
Have you found out?
I remember more . . .
Can you change?
I can change.

For years he must have cried a river of tears.
In his dreams he saw himself . . . a dying man
drawing figures, arrows in the sand.
Mmm, I don’t think he understands.
Never thought that it would last forever.
One glance back . . . there’s nothing much to say.
He watched as it all began spinning further and further from the truth.

And nothing really matters, when your heart doesn’t lead the way.
				

Where are you now?
Feeling small.
Can’t live without it?
You call this your best?
I made my life a mess.
And everyone but you sees it.
What a fool.
What are you gonna do,
make more excuses?
Why don’t you tie it off?
Hang myself?
End your pathetic little life!

What is your life worth now?
Is this what you pictured for yourself?

Do you understand anything?

You’re not there yet.
You’re not anywhere yet.
Am I closer?
Go back to your mountain.
				

I still have questions with no answers.
I’m alive . . . but I’m not living.
I don’t have much time left . . . I just know this:
I’ve lived a violent life.
I might as well be dead.

I just want to sleep forever
and forget . . .

It’s more than physical, love unconditional.
Everything else is like a Band-Aid.
Everything will be allright.

So you cover your bleeding wounds,
so the dogs won’t smell you coming.
There may be time . . . and
. . . everything will work out fine.

But what if it never changes?
And what if I wasn’t to blame?
And what if it never gets any better . . . than this?
Everything will be allright.

What if I wasn’t to blame?
And what if I could change?
Yeah, what if I could change?
Everything will work out fine.

What if you’re only . . . ?

What if I’m only insane?
				

I feel like I’m rising,
as everything falls away.
I feel old like the cold wind
blowing outside today.

Got my finger on the trigger and no one cares.
When they find me face down in the river
will they just leave me there?

Hang on, don’t let go!
Just hang on! Don’t let go!

Come on, come on
gotta take a ride,
Fear City slide.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
leave your head outside,
you’ve built a lie.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
let’s take a ride!
Last chance @ suicide.

Will anyone remember?
Will they learn from my mistakes?
Sometimes it takes a lifetime of pain to change.

I’m closing on the edge here and you’ve heard it all before . . .
but what good did any of my life bring?
What was it really for?

Hang on don’t let go!
Just hang on and don’t let go!

Come on, come on
gotta take a ride,
Fear City slide.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
leave your head outside,
you’ve lived a lie.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
let’s take a ride!
Last chance @ suicide.

Take me to the top of the sky . . . and
let me look down . . .
the long mile down.
When will the darkness end?

Hang on, don’t let go!
Just hang on and don’t let go!

Come on, come on
gotta take a ride,
Fear City slide.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
leave your head outside,
you’ve lived a lie.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
let’s take a ride!
Last chance @ suicide.
				

Is there some other way out of here?
Somewhere I could find myself?
Can’t sleep enough, can’t stay high.
All the promises . . . just another lie.

I’ve always been afraid except . . .
in the moments that I loved you.
The only time I felt strong
was when you stood next to me.
I could make a stand if . . .
I could hold your hand again . . .

The road I’ve traveled is the hard way down,
always playing another man’s fool.
They offered a way inside
with the promise of forgiveness. It’s a lie.
Could you forgive what I’ve done?

We had it all, but couldn’t see anything.
The blind leading the blind
through the darkest night.

When you said you loved me
it made me feel alive.
When you said you loved me it made me feel . . .
like I could fly.

I’ve always lived afraid except . . .
in the moments that I loved you.
The only time I felt strong was when you stood next to me.
I could make a stand if . . .
I could hold your hand again.

We had it all, but couldn’t see anything.
The blind leading the blind through
the darkest of nights.
When you said you loved me it made me feel alive.

When you said you loved me
it made me feel . . . like I could fly.

I’ve always been afraid except in the moments
that I loved you.